#big fears

Hey Goose, sorry this took so long, I had to really think about this one!

Stolas, a literal Prince of Hell (POH if you will) doesn't have many fears, I mean, his pets alone are the stuff of nightmares, and his oldest siblings tend to take the form of more traditional chaotic angel/demon forms. Stolas's biggest fear is Natsuo dying before reaching immortality and having to wait for him to be reborn. He would be forced to live a human lifetime knowing that his mate could be reborn anywhere at anytime and having to search the globe for him.

On a lighter note his favorite answer to give when people ask what he's afraid of is, "Teenagers- they really scare the livin' shit out of me". He has never gotten a laugh, but he keeps on tryin 🤣

Do you love me? Why do you ask? Do you love me? Love me? Love me? Do you? Do you? I love you. Very much. That’s all that matters.

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Oh gosh, Anon, that’s a tough one. Because there’s a lot I’m afraid of.

I’m afraid of losing my loved ones. I’m afraid of not being needed or wanted anymore. I’m afraid of what could happen if I’m not enough on the field. I’m afraid of mistakes that always come back to haunt me, mistakes I can’t fix. I’m afraid of being left behind like I was in the Quantum Realm.

just in time for the holidays, right?

i shouldn't be scared about this but im worried my partner is giving more than just hospitality to their friend who is staying over. i could be wrong! i hope im wrong! i just cant stop worrying for some reason.. let me gather my DEEP PERSONAL fears here

1. partner expressed that theyre non monogamous.. however the last thing they said about it was "i wouldnt be open to it right now" and "i'm emotionally tired" and "i wanna give all my attention to you!"

2. which is reassuring in itself but! often they forget what they tell me? and when i pull it up theyre like oh i DID say that.. i really hope what they said is still how they feel

3. hate to say this but i have? an inferiority complex? and i feel like its gotten worse.. like theyre a talented and kind and amazing person, they attract lots more talented n fun people.. where do i fit in in all of this? i dont think im talented? whats the point in hanging out with me? what if the friend is super cool and wears colored eyeliner?

4. theyre casual about nice gestures and i cant tell what they would do for a friend vs what they would do for a lover, i cant tell what they consider romantic gestures,,

5. what if the friend is dtf. i mean. while i'm with them we do it together so often. what if theyre attracted to their friend? im pretty sure they have more self control than that, but again, its a personal fear

6. ;;; what if my partner and their friend do stuff that i wanted us to do together,,, like play video games or go to the supermarket;;; this one makes me cry thinking about it

7. i cannot visit my partner as often as i want to, while their friend stays over every week,, maybe something would happen over time;;;

if things happen, if feelings shift, its out of my control and thats okay