#bfs?

I mean being friends with someone really long time like more than 7 years should be considered special right? So you call them best friends or as everyone knows it BFFFFFFFF(infinity) idk just because you’ve known each other for a really long time. I mean it’s understandable, you know someone for really long time and you get to know them personally and you’re the one that they go to because you guys understand each other and hear each other out. They know that you’re not going to judge them and all so they tell you everything because it’s not comfortable for most teenagers to tell your problems to a family members and friends you barely know and not trust. awk... And it doesn't have to be only telling each other personal problems to be BFFFFFF and everything. It’s the deeper connection you have with them, the memories, the fights, and just about anything that involves shit with school. Anyways let’s get to the point... I have this friend that I wish to call close as in BFFFFFF but I don’t think I can anymore. We’ve known each other since middle school and I realized in high school that even though we’re really close (it’s a girl btw), we haven’t been giving each other any presents and all that kind of shit on our special days and stuff. And I didn’t really want to initiate it either because I mean I’m a GAY guy but I’m still too lazy to do all that. So I’d figure she would do it you know but we haven’t. Yet in high school she became really close friends with this other girl that I befriended first my freshman year and I noticed that she gave birthday shout outs on Instagram and just gifts for her. I mean I’m not jealous about that at all. PLEASE lol. It’s just that even though we’ve been friends longer why hasn’t she done that for me before? Because truly let me tell you, I was the first one to post a pic of her on Instagram and said HAPPY BIRTHDAY and then she posted a shout out for me. I mean our birthday is really close but still. And just throughout high school she’s been distant and we were still friends but I didn’t consider her my BFFFF anymore. Tbh I still didn’t tell her I’m gay because I DON’T FEEL COMFORTABLE BUT YET SHE DOESN’T CARE. That’s the thing! I should feel comfortable, I mean for fucks sake we’ve been through so much shit and all, yet still I’m not ready to tell her whilst other people not even close to me knows. But I’m not saying it’s her fault for not giving me gifts for my birthday and all because I didn’t do it either so I can’t blame her. BUT (btw I graduated HS class of 2015) our senior year on her birthday my other friend and I brought her food and balloons and we both chipped in money for that. Yet she still didn’t give me any gifts on my birthday few days after and that got me pissed off. I don’t care about the presents and shit but the fact that she didn’t even have the thoughts of giving something back is just fucking bs. YET she gave the girl I talked about earlier that I befriended first in freshman candies and shit right in front of me for her birthday. And on graduation day she posted a pic on Instagram with the same girl. I mean shouldn’t it be with me because we’ve been through so much and all? Like “WE DID IT! STARTED FROM THE BOTTOM NOW WE HERE!” IDK something like that?!?!?! LIKE I SAID I’m actually not mad about it but just that she doesn’t have any sense in that area just doesn’t sit with me right. I’m debating with myself right now if I should talk to her about it or not because I’m getting impatient. Whether you read this or not idk just send me a message about what you think.