#bella please

the thought of you thinking of someone else how i think of you makes me ill,, and not in a way where i’m just anxious and sad,, like to the point of me vomiting my own organs and tearing away my skin,, it makes every atom of my body want to decompose and rot away into nothing without you,, you’re everything i need to survive,, you are my everything,, so the thought of someone else being that to you,, i might as well be nothing,, leave myself to turn to compost in the soil,, for worms to burrow into my flesh,, i need you to need me,, i need you to love me,,

the craving i get when you aren’t near is unbearable,, i wish to be with you always,, i wish to be the air you breathe,, the water you drink,, the substance you consume,, i wish to be everything you need,, so maybe you’d understand why you’re what i need too,,

i miss you,, my love,, i wish to be near you always,, these times without you always feel like i’m grieving,, although i know you’re only in a room away from me,, i wish to inhabit every space you’re in,, i wish you’d inhabit my own bones,,