as a closing note
this roleplaying community i was once part of was really fun, and it was really accepting and really relaxed and wonderful. once.
the reason i'm abandoning this blog is because i feel chewed up and spit out by the friends i made when i first made this blog, friends who won't even bat an eyelash at me now, for whatever reason. i want to escape from this broken ring. i'm tired of living in the shadow of a few people whose guts i bitterly hate, i'm tired of trying to talk to my friends again and being entirely ignored, i'm tired of the kind of attitude they've all seemed to adopt. i'm tired of carrying the weight and identity of this blog that's been lost entirely because i've been so worried about the people i thought were my friends not liking me anymore.
but i'm done trying to grab for straws in a blog and community that i'm honestly no longer a part of, where the magic was stamped out. so honestly, those of you who give two shits can follow the new blog i'm making, and if you're part of that ring, you probably don't care, anyway-- but i don't want to deal with any of you anymore.
fuck you guys, really. i for one will not consign myself to bow my head to roleplayers who think they're so much better than everyone else that they don't even talk to anyone OOC. those who would even hurt the friends who did stay by me after all of you left. just, fuck off, honestly.
i hope to recreate enoshima junko on my blog as the sweet poison i originally wanted to portray her as, not canonical in any boastful way, but with my own personality channeled into her persona in a way i feel makes sense. that's the junko i was when i made this blog two months ago. and that's the junko i want to be. not anyone else.
