ARE British cars good in the snow? The Canadian snow? Somehow I’m skeptical Shane.

They in the car are SO CUTE there’s something about the way Ilya says “no I’m okay” when Shane asks if he’s hungry that is so fucking familiar I was kicking my feet already in this ep just at them doing the drive together

“I’d like to relax with you”

“It would if it was anyone but you” laughing and then grabbing Shane’s hand to hold and looking at him fondly, and then just watching him fondly for several beats as he drives

God I ADORE the camera work from when Ilya kisses Shane and through moving to the couch and making out. Fucking gorgeous. The intimacy ❤️

Also I love that Ilya immediately stops Shane from lowering the blinds in the bedroom and puts them back up. He want them to be open and in the light 🥲

Also I didn’t notice the first time around but as Ilya presses Shane against the window, and goes to kiss him he is pinching Shane’s nipples. Bless you king 🙏Love that.

Ilya waning to know about Shane’s parents 🫶 he wants to know you know you Shane. And you can tell he wants to support him. ahhh!

Head in lap! Head in lap! His mom 🥺 not wanting to go inside

Ugh the chin on the knee, the knee kiss, the stroke up the thigh. I was hoping so bad we’d get an Ilya nuzzling Shane’s crotch part here, in a more affectionate mirror of the Vegas hotel scene

The playfulness and the teasing and the baiting tho ahh

I thought he was going to say he wanted to play on the same team

Are they touching feetsies together from where they’re sitting on opposite ends of the couch? They ARE 🥰

Ilya don’t you dare and also. Curious how Svetlana is American. American mother? Probably. Book people don’t tell me (anything, for that matter)

Just noticed this (and maybe I’m wrong) but is Ilya wearing Shane’s plaid shirt in this couch scene? I don’t think I’m wrong

“I have this problem” and “I don’t ever want that problem to ever go away” they way these boys will openly say I Love You without using the words themselves

FEETSIES CONFIRMED

Last names during this middle of the night convo…

I adores how it started but then for a second I wasn’t sure how I felt about this confession, but I fucking love how emotional Ilya is through it and how he burrows into Shane’s chest and let’s himself be held. And the “not anymore” 🥹❤️

Ok I’m getting sick of pausing to write I want to be ~immersed~ again so we’ll see what I can remember afterwards

The blanket in the morning and the ankle kiss when Shane is sitting on the rock in the lake

The slow sex I’ve been dying for since Shane held Ilya in the Tampa hotel room 🥹🙏💗 it’s not missionary like I imagined it, but it’s still good. (signed, sentimental romantic me) And Ilya sucking Shane’s nipple? !!? Lord have mercy and praise be 😍 (signed, horny me) (this might be out of order…ok checked and fixed it)

“What was your mother’s name” “She would have loved you. Like I love you” fucking tears 😭 rolling to my ears (I’m watching this lying down)

GOD now that it’s out in the open Ilya just full on letting his love shine on Shane, being the most loving and supportive partner. Fuck.

“You’re brave” during the panic attack, “shut up” “you are” and squeezing him.

Sinking to the floor during a panic/anxiety attack is so fucking real. And I loved the resting his head against Ilya’s leg to ground him 😭

Holding Shane’s hand on the gear stick and lifting it to kiss on the drive to his parents 🥺

“You never let him win did you?” Yuna. 🤦‍♀️

GOD now that it’s out in the open Ilya just full on letting his love shine on Shane, being the most loving and supportive partner. Fuck. (Pasting again because it applies to the whole time at Shane’s parents too)

The credits I was so caught off guard by the first watch. I thought we had another 30 minutes left. Both times made the tears fall again though. I adored that they weren’t black credits. There is something about watching them on a car ride together, I could watch it for ages 🥹(also on their very first car ride to the cabin, Shane may or may not have had his hand on Ilya’s thigh but Ilya reaching for it and holding it and maybe putting it there? 👌)

That last part of Shane grabbing Ilya’s chin and making a face seems like a little Hudson leaked out but it was adorable

And loved the credits song

Ahhh 🥹😭 I want to have a good old cry but I’ve had trouble with tears lately. Idk why. This ep def got me several times but I want a release and I can tell my body is like holding a dam for some reason

Anyway might block the tag just so I can marinate in the post-watching experience more. Actually didn’t love how fast all the gifs came out last episode and this one, it was kind of overwhelming/oversaturating