#beawings

although its not what i wished for i love you enough to let you go so even though i say "i'm fine" look at me and memorise all the hurt in my face as you walk away because we both know that i'm never getting over you

though i cannot make you stay you can't stop me from loving you and so here i sit, in a haze of broken promises and love untrue

it frightens me how ready i am to let myself go and surrender to you; and yet, i don't know if you would do the same for me.

for months I asked myself if I could go back in time how could I have loved you better guilt and insecurity consumed me until I spiralled out of control and began to hate myself it took me months to realise i loved you so much that I forgot to love myself

it was hard to forget you, when you appeared in all the crevices of my life and pulled me back into your gravity.

on the most bitter of nights, i draw in our happiest memories, weave them into the softest of blankets to drape over myself and keep me safe. on the darkest of days, i take in our most passionate moments, create my own burning light to set myself alight and keep myself warm.

you were a miracle who came to me in the coldest of winters and lit up my sky with a scattering of stars that reflected the lights you said you found in my eyes.

he is the wolf who comes straight for your heart -  a ferocity unchallenged by many but a startling love for you.