#beasjourney

[gonna be long sorry]

my close friends here know how I am with my shifting journey sometimes and how I have been feeling so lost over and over the past days.. I'm grateful to each of you, for always giving me advice and listening to me, trying to be there for me, ilysm, thank you for reading<3

I don't know what this can be considered, I genuinely myself after getting back to my dorm reflecting on it I see it as a shift, just I was very disoriented and it feels like I wasn't grounded enough!

so it would make sense for y'all, not long ago I created a girl group dr as well, it just sounded so fun, the members are me, Yeji, Rosé, Giselle, I haven't really had time to actually try to shift there, I just edited some aesthetic for us and come up with our group name but that's it

so last night I was a bit annoyed when it got to the time to get ready to bed, plus my roommates weren't helping at all, it was almost midnight and I wanted to go to bed early bc i was already tired plus I had to wake up at 6am and they didn't and the light was on in the room and etc.

okay, I decided to put on a subliminal but in a way that I should really try to relax nothing more, not thinking about my Dr or something like that, I put it on, listened to it like five minutes max, and fell asleep and slept around 20 mins, woke up put my airpods down and rolled over not thinking about anything just wanting to sleep, plus ignoring the circumstances in the room

(I used this one)

the next thing that happened was that I opened a white door and as I stepped in I found myself in a really small dance studio, and I turned around and a girl with a blonde hair with black highlights in her hair walked into the room greeting me with a smile on her face and I just greeted her w

"hey Hannah!" (it wasn't Chris's sis even tho I have her scripted into my dr's)

okay, I turned around and the room was filled with boxes on the floor, and I walked over the couch seeing two girls sitting there chilling, I guess they must've been my close friends, I cannot really attach pics too, since I don't think I could find really accurate how they look like, but maybe later I will try to do that, I don't know their names since we didn't call each other I just asked

"where's Giselle?" and they just replied that she hasn't arrived yet. I was like okay, then I glanced around the room and said "I can't wait for us to move out! Our new place is gonna be amazing."

then I took a seat down as well and Hannah just agreed with my words, and suddenly it's just clicked that she is my manager, like I just knew it and felt it (it may not make any sense but istg)

I immediately looked down on my phone and my Instagram was open and it was on Hannah's account, I looked at one of her posts where she had a picture posted with her boyfriend, guys istg if I could draw I would draw how they looked like, it was so cute, her boyfriend had a long hair and I got his face too

then the door opened and I looked up to see Chris, and the boys coming in, they immediately started chatting lol and I looked up at Chris and when I tell you he looked so handsome, gosh, he was wearing a grey sweatpants and black hoodie, he smiled down at me, I smiled back, he seemed eager to keep going with the conversation with the boys but he was such a cutie pie stealing glances at me

then I looked back at my phone scrolling down and saw an edit of me and the boys, we were dance practicing and the caption said that

"I love when the best skz duo dresses up in a matching way"

and in the video me and Chris were literally matching, we both were wearing blue shirt and black pants, the boys were wearing something grey and white, guys even tho I didn't caught my face clearly in that video only a few moves while dancing, wdym i saw myself dancing??? Like ohmygod

okay scrolled again and saw a video close up of myself, it was my faceclaim I use, I had the same features as her but a bit different and in the video I was smiling and laughing as I was looking up at Chris, and the caption said

"do you all see the way she smiles and looks at him?"

and then switch and found myself waking up in my CR, but I wasn't actually waken up like here here CR, like it switched to alternate CR of mine idk how to explain lol I'm sorry, and I literally felt so much happiness because I knew, my mind knew I fucking shifted, even I was texting to my friends on my phone that I shifted

and then my alarm woke me up here in my dorm bed, and as I woke up I was like did this actually happened? Like it's possible? AND after thirty minutes getting ready for uni and I was heading to my class it hit me, this subliminal did the magical work y'all because they say in the video can't quote exactly "floating out of your CR body, then look down at your etc." "imagine a door and behind it is your Dr self" and I fucking opened that door (you all should try this subliminal out if you all already haven't ofc)

this reality definitely sounds like that I am part of Stray Kids, just like in my main Dr, it's just I also have a really close relationship with the girls and maybe we actually do something together

𝒶𝓁𝓁 𝒶𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒

𝐼𝓃𝓋𝒾𝓈𝒾𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔

𝓉𝓎𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝑒? ⋆.˚

thinking about that time when I minishifted to my parent dr and heard our little ones giggles as they were calling out "eomma" and "appa"

maybe the problem is totally with me, I don't give or try hard enough for people here, I can't give enough and that is just not enough in general, and that hurts.

I wanted to deactivate my account, but idk how to do that so I will just log off again and delete the app for good. I probably won't come up here to celebrate the Holidays with you all

but genuinely from the bottom of my heart I wish you all the best and all the happiness! You guys deserve it so so much. For those who celebrate the Holidays, Merry Christmas and I hope you all will shift soon and be with your loved ones! I want to come back to messages that 'I have shifted Bea' but it's okay, I just know it will happen to you all soon! 🫶🏻

Just remember your efforts, your love, your devotions are seen everyday, and I am so proud of each of you! You are doing enough.🤍

well that's my little goodbye.

See you all in next year! Hopefully, if I decide to come back.

with love -

During my trip, yes, Chris made sure for me to not feel less alone and kept literally sending me signs. He was everywhere basically, I don't wanna go into details, but if I am being honest I am still flabbergasted.. it was pretty unreal to actually believe those signs

I am extremely tired, but from now on I am trying to catch up with everyone<3

This is just insane. Thank you so so much for your support and love! There are no words to describe how I am feeling right now.. For a while I have been wondering if I should keep my page keep going, if more shifters would be interested in my shifting journey and all while I could get to know theirs too, but it looks like you all surprised me and made me stay here.

My god, just thank you. I am beyond grateful to every single one of you!

Mwuah, I love you all 🥹🤍

⠀:¨ ·.· ¨:

╭⊰ beatrice yoon ⊱╮

sσғтʜᴇᴀʀтᴇᴅ ᴄʜᴀᴏтιᴄ ℓσvιɴg

╭⊰ keeho yoon ⊱╮

ℓσყαℓ sαssყ sσғтʜᴇᴀʀтᴇᴅ

𖠋♡𖠋

it's kind of funny how keeho has been reaching out to me for months, just me completely ignoring the signs haha, but that is why shifting is so beautiful, we have found each other when the time was right.

warms my heart everyday that he chose me as his sister and of course my heart and soul accepted him.