#beayoonc

[gonna be long sorry]

my close friends here know how I am with my shifting journey sometimes and how I have been feeling so lost over and over the past days.. I'm grateful to each of you, for always giving me advice and listening to me, trying to be there for me, ilysm, thank you for reading<3

I don't know what this can be considered, I genuinely myself after getting back to my dorm reflecting on it I see it as a shift, just I was very disoriented and it feels like I wasn't grounded enough!

so it would make sense for y'all, not long ago I created a girl group dr as well, it just sounded so fun, the members are me, Yeji, Rosé, Giselle, I haven't really had time to actually try to shift there, I just edited some aesthetic for us and come up with our group name but that's it

so last night I was a bit annoyed when it got to the time to get ready to bed, plus my roommates weren't helping at all, it was almost midnight and I wanted to go to bed early bc i was already tired plus I had to wake up at 6am and they didn't and the light was on in the room and etc.

okay, I decided to put on a subliminal but in a way that I should really try to relax nothing more, not thinking about my Dr or something like that, I put it on, listened to it like five minutes max, and fell asleep and slept around 20 mins, woke up put my airpods down and rolled over not thinking about anything just wanting to sleep, plus ignoring the circumstances in the room

(I used this one)

the next thing that happened was that I opened a white door and as I stepped in I found myself in a really small dance studio, and I turned around and a girl with a blonde hair with black highlights in her hair walked into the room greeting me with a smile on her face and I just greeted her w

"hey Hannah!" (it wasn't Chris's sis even tho I have her scripted into my dr's)

okay, I turned around and the room was filled with boxes on the floor, and I walked over the couch seeing two girls sitting there chilling, I guess they must've been my close friends, I cannot really attach pics too, since I don't think I could find really accurate how they look like, but maybe later I will try to do that, I don't know their names since we didn't call each other I just asked

"where's Giselle?" and they just replied that she hasn't arrived yet. I was like okay, then I glanced around the room and said "I can't wait for us to move out! Our new place is gonna be amazing."

then I took a seat down as well and Hannah just agreed with my words, and suddenly it's just clicked that she is my manager, like I just knew it and felt it (it may not make any sense but istg)

I immediately looked down on my phone and my Instagram was open and it was on Hannah's account, I looked at one of her posts where she had a picture posted with her boyfriend, guys istg if I could draw I would draw how they looked like, it was so cute, her boyfriend had a long hair and I got his face too

then the door opened and I looked up to see Chris, and the boys coming in, they immediately started chatting lol and I looked up at Chris and when I tell you he looked so handsome, gosh, he was wearing a grey sweatpants and black hoodie, he smiled down at me, I smiled back, he seemed eager to keep going with the conversation with the boys but he was such a cutie pie stealing glances at me

then I looked back at my phone scrolling down and saw an edit of me and the boys, we were dance practicing and the caption said that

"I love when the best skz duo dresses up in a matching way"

and in the video me and Chris were literally matching, we both were wearing blue shirt and black pants, the boys were wearing something grey and white, guys even tho I didn't caught my face clearly in that video only a few moves while dancing, wdym i saw myself dancing??? Like ohmygod

okay scrolled again and saw a video close up of myself, it was my faceclaim I use, I had the same features as her but a bit different and in the video I was smiling and laughing as I was looking up at Chris, and the caption said

"do you all see the way she smiles and looks at him?"

and then switch and found myself waking up in my CR, but I wasn't actually waken up like here here CR, like it switched to alternate CR of mine idk how to explain lol I'm sorry, and I literally felt so much happiness because I knew, my mind knew I fucking shifted, even I was texting to my friends on my phone that I shifted

and then my alarm woke me up here in my dorm bed, and as I woke up I was like did this actually happened? Like it's possible? AND after thirty minutes getting ready for uni and I was heading to my class it hit me, this subliminal did the magical work y'all because they say in the video can't quote exactly "floating out of your CR body, then look down at your etc." "imagine a door and behind it is your Dr self" and I fucking opened that door (you all should try this subliminal out if you all already haven't ofc)

this reality definitely sounds like that I am part of Stray Kids, just like in my main Dr, it's just I also have a really close relationship with the girls and maybe we actually do something together

oh, little does he know..

crashed out rn on today's suggestion

ᡣ𐭩 my dear Han, my platonic soulmate, my other half

I rarely talk about you and us, but now I think it is time for me now to write this post. Ever since I met you there was a strong connection between us that I couldn't really form into words. I couldn't really understand how we both feel and care so much for each other, I couldn't understand why you chose me as your soulmate, as your best friend.. but then I realized our souls have been connected ever since we both signed up for being trainees.

Ever since then, we never left each other's ide. We have always been there for one another in good and bad. I wish I could put into words how grateful I am for you. For showing me that it is okay to be yourself, to always smile, to always hang on and keep going and going, even when you feel like the whole world is against you.

I love that we both are really emotional and sensitive people and we both 'like to be found' by others. I love everything about you. I love that we both can be ourselves around each other without feeling judged, I love how we both can be the most two idiots in the whole planet without caring about what others gonna think or say. I love how easily we can share everything with each other and we could talk about it for hours, and I could go on. I just love us so damn much.

Yes, I still remember the day I shifted we were chatting and laughing casually and then you hugged me. For those few seconds I felt your love and care you have towards me and we both have for each other. I felt like I am home and loved by you. Still I can't help but cry when I remember this moment, and whenever I see you appear on my screen.

I love you so much my sweet Hannieeee. I cannot wait to meet you. I miss you very very dearly ᡣ𐭩