#be romantic

2024.10.09 | Do something for your self each day that you would do for a loved one in a romantic relationship. Whether you are single or in a romantic relationship; you should never forget to show love for your self too.

When I was in high school I always wanted my partner to buy me flowers.

I am actually a huge romantic at heart, but you know... you’ve gotta play it cool, right?

So, I was always waiting and waiting and waiting for the day that I would have someone that would go the whole 9 yards for me. They would buy me flowers, leave me little notes just because, tell their friends all about how they were just as excited as I was to be in a relationship...

Well that never happened.

Sure, I dated. We would hold hands, and kiss, etc. but I never got that fairytale bullshit that I would never admit to wanting...

It honestly hurt a bit. I started to feel like I didn’t deserve those things because I saw other people getting them... so why not me?

I know, stupid. Because who can realistically expect those kinds of romantic gestures from those who are just getting used to their hormones? And I wasn’t being honest about what I wanted either so I couldn’t really blame anyone either.

So flash forwards a couple of years. I’m out of high school, a little more mature, in my first serious relationship..... and still no flowers. I’d been open and honest, I shared more and stopped pretending that romance was for the birds... but still no flowers.

So really feeling low now.... and this continued on through a few hopefuls. 5 partners. No flowers.. and it hurts???

Then strolls in kp. A beautiful specimen of human awesomeness that I magically stumbled upon. A person who lives wide open with the love they give others, and really really really loves flowers.

So I’m standing there in the grocery store one day, thinking of how much I love them and how far away they are (we were on opposite sides of the country at this point) and I wanted to show them how much I love them.... and I spot these beautiful yellow flowers out of the corner of my eye... and I have an idea.

What is something that I would appreciate from my partner that would make me smile? Something romantic and sentimental just to show that they’re thinking of me???

Flowers.

So I pulled out my phone, picked out my favorites, and sent them. Just like that.

The look on their face when they arrived a few days later was so incredibly perfect that it makes me smile to this day every time I see yellow flowers.

So yeah. I’m not really sure what I’m trying to say here. I’m very very tired, and a little more than stupidly in love with the person snoring beside me... but I guess I’m saying that sometimes you’re gonna date people who don’t buy you flowers, and you’ll feel bad about yourself for a bit... but then you’ll find someone who makes *you* want to buy flowers just to see them smile... and you’ll plant a garden together and chase your cats out of the flower beds together ❤️

if your love is a constant source of pain, inconsideration, and colder than the Arctics...take the past into consideration.