No, cause in Thunderbolts, they go through a series of ‘shame’ rooms. I think one of John’s would have been the first time he had sex with a man. He probably grew up in a religious household, so he must of heard gay is bad all of the time. He probably had his first time with Lemar, and while he tried to enjoy it, he just couldn’t. It took him a few more times before he could actually enjoy it. He was ashamed of his first time. Because while the other times were better, he still had that mindset of it being wrong.












