#bashlandry

Chloe could hardly believe her eyes. On top of everything she was dealing with, now she was staring at Bash. Who had said nothing to her about being out of prison, first of all. Second of all, he had been in prison in the first place. He wasn’t her problem, but she somehow always managed to make him her problem. Especially with everything that had happened with Lily, and the fact that Chloe had now taken her on as a client. It seemed like a good idea at the time, a harmless way to make a jab at him for getting himself in such trouble, but now it was just going to be weird. She wasn’t getting paid enough to deal with weird.  Her feet carried her before she could think. She found herself planted in front of him, chin tilted up to look at him as he stood over a foot taller than her. Her arms crossed in front of her chest, as she seemingly waited for him to say something. “So, I take it you’re out of prison?” The question had a bite to it that wasn’t quite so casual. It wasn’t really fair to be upset with him, she knew that, but Chloe wasn’t exactly in a state for emotional control.

13. When was the last time you were truly happy?

💢  :    your  muse  picks  mine  up   &   carries  them  over  their  shoulder .

Lily should’ve known by now to expect the unexpected with Bash Landry. What was supposed to have been a nice dinner at a fancy restaurant one town over had turned into an exploratory adventure, with the pair walking along some cobblestone streets and Lily trying her best to not stumble in her stilettos. “Couldn’t we have just gone on a park bench to sit? These shoes aren’t made for these streets, Sebastian?”

1. What’s your biggest fear?

answered.

4. Last thing that made you cry?

answered.

10. When did you have your first real relationship? How did it go?

4. what seemingly insignificant memories stuck with your character?

Sam has a bunch of memories of his childhood spent with friends that are still in his life and will probably continue to be forever. He remembers bike rides through the town on warm summer days and long nights spent outside long after their curfew, just small glimpses of a life that felt much lighter and easier, even with the restrictions that came with his family name. He cherishes them and thinks of them often, especially when he hangs out with those who are closest to him. There are also fond memories of him and his mom stored in the back of his mind but he tries to keep those locked away to keep the hurt at bay. Yet, he remembers them baking and cooking together a lot when he was a kid and bringing batches over to neighbors and friends at random, just as a sweet kind of gesture, referring to him as her very own delivery service and he remembers feeling so proud every time.

10. what does your character pretend or try to care about?

While Sam isn’t all that good at caring about anything in general, or at least comes across that way often, he does try to care about other people’s feelings a lot more than he used to. It’s not him pretending usually but genuinely trying – he just doesn’t always succeed. He knows, deep down, that it’s a defense mechanism he developed over time. One he doesn’t really care for so he is doing his best to be more empathetic.

12. what is your character afraid of? what scares them the most?

Losing someone he loves again. As much as he pretends not to care, he holds those he trusts and admires close to him and it would destroy him to know one of them got hurt, let alone one of them left him for whatever reason. The abandonment issues are strong but he’s mostly just worried for their well-being and safety or worries they might just not want to deal with him anymore at one point. He couldn’t bear a loss like that ever again after his mother’s passing.

13. what is a secret your character has never told anyone?

5. what is your character reluctant to tell people?

For John, it’s still hard to talk about why he can’t do certain things some days, that he’s perfectly capable of doing on others and he usually refuses to ask for help when he’s in pain and struggling, mostly because he doesn’t want to be a burden to anyone. He’s used to handling things on his own, so that’s what he’s been doing for a bigger portion of his life. He knows he should just be honest and tell people that he got into an accident when he was younger and it left him with a few permanent injuries, but to him there’s nothing more frustrating than having to admit his defeat. Instead, he pushes through it, unless he’s entirely unable to hide it.

Another thing he doesn’t like to share unless it comes up is that he still does paint occasionally. The answer to the question is only a google search away but if he’s not asked about it, he won’t talk about it.

16. if your character could talk to their younger self, what would they say?

Having grown up in the foster system is another thing John is reluctant to talk about but ultimately, it shaped him and is a part of his story, one that he accepted early on but because of it, he’d tell his younger self that even if it sounds cliché, things will get so much better for him. He’d tell himself that he shouldn’t be so hard on himself and try his best to believe in his abilities, without taking them for granted. That he’s worthy of love and care without having to work so hard for it or pretend to be something that he’s not. He’d tell himself to be less fearful, more confident in his decisions and that it’s okay to say no sometimes – which is something he struggles with to this day. He’d tell himself that compromises are important but always a two-way street, especially in relationships. John would tell his younger self that he should never settle, even if he feels alone and helpless sometimes, he’s not and he won’t be. He’d tell him that even if he goes through hardships and heartbreaks, he should never lose his tenderness but hold it close to his chest – people will cherish and love him more for it.

19. what did your character want to be as a kid and did they succeed?