#badbuddyseries

earthmix x fourthgemini

earthmix x ohmnanon

the collabs that I never knew I needed:

earthmix x fourthgemini

I’m staying off twitter these days for my mentality and peace (it’s still really hard) so i need to vent here.

I’M SO DAMN AFRAID OF THE OURSKYY 2 SPECIAL EPISODE HELP. 

I’ve never loved a bl as much as I love bad buddy; I’ve been obsessed with it for a year now (and when I mean obsessed, I mean OBSESSED, I still have to force myself to watch other shows; never enjoy a show even a tiny bit as much as bbs; ergo I’m still down bad). So bad buddy is very dear to me and if it gets ruined i’ll cry. more than that probably. I’m always naturally afraid of 2nd seasons/special episodes bc of that. I trust P’Aof  but I feel like I’ve been send back to the week I spent between episode 11 and 12. IT’S SO HARD TO NOT BE AFRAID. 

And now with all the twitter beef in the greenred fandom help.

I can’t even begin to talk about my inappropriate obsession with ONs friendship (I know I shouldn’t have invested myself as much as i did, I’m working on never doing that again and losing the unhealhty aspect of it all). So the past few months been hard on that front. Greenreds being divided into solo stans still feels so surreal (and I’ll still never pick a side; I love them both but the stans always arguing and creating so damn much hate on both boys bc of that really hunts me). It’s been rough and maybe that’s why ON frienship suffered. Or maybe not. Maybe it’s something completely different but i don’t care; It’s their private life and they are allowed to choose their friends and if they weren’t meant to be that’s it. And it’s okay. And they don’t own us anything. 

Pa: We'll call P'Pran

1) Pran's mom's manipulation. Pran had been brought up with the idea that this rivalry is their destiny, that they're simply born that way. Pran, despite all the damage it had done to him, doesn't seem to question his parent's rules and restrictions yet.

"If we know how it ends, isn't it better not to start at all?"

He accepts them as a fact of life, a truth, fate. Although both families are deeply invested in this rivalry, only of them has instilled this deep rooted anxiety in their son, this belief that it is right and inevitable. He doesn't want the ill-fated cycle of separation and pain repeating again. He'd rather have Pat as his enemy than not have him at all.

"I should take a break. It still hurts"

2) The complex relationship of Pat and Pran. Pran and Pat's relationship has had me fascinated big time. Despite being in love, they aren't lovers. Despite occasionally being friendly, they aren't friends. Despite constantly being at odds, they aren't enemies. Pran and Pat having kept their relationship hidden under the guise of rivalry, a direct confrontation between the two was never required. Pran being the more sensitive one, was reluctant to admit that he had feelings for Pat. Moreover having kept his feelings hidden away for a long time, he had full control over his emotions

3) Pat not clearing the air between him and Pran regarding Ink. Although Pat had kissed him, still he was the one who had claimed that he likes Ink only a day ago. Moreover, Pat has always hidden his sincerity and commitment behind the goofy tone of his. The goofiness in his tone, might have made Pran question his actions, commitment and sincerity.