#greenreds

I’m staying off twitter these days for my mentality and peace (it’s still really hard) so i need to vent here.

I’M SO DAMN AFRAID OF THE OURSKYY 2 SPECIAL EPISODE HELP. 

I’ve never loved a bl as much as I love bad buddy; I’ve been obsessed with it for a year now (and when I mean obsessed, I mean OBSESSED, I still have to force myself to watch other shows; never enjoy a show even a tiny bit as much as bbs; ergo I’m still down bad). So bad buddy is very dear to me and if it gets ruined i’ll cry. more than that probably. I’m always naturally afraid of 2nd seasons/special episodes bc of that. I trust P’Aof  but I feel like I’ve been send back to the week I spent between episode 11 and 12. IT’S SO HARD TO NOT BE AFRAID. 

And now with all the twitter beef in the greenred fandom help.

I can’t even begin to talk about my inappropriate obsession with ONs friendship (I know I shouldn’t have invested myself as much as i did, I’m working on never doing that again and losing the unhealhty aspect of it all). So the past few months been hard on that front. Greenreds being divided into solo stans still feels so surreal (and I’ll still never pick a side; I love them both but the stans always arguing and creating so damn much hate on both boys bc of that really hunts me). It’s been rough and maybe that’s why ON frienship suffered. Or maybe not. Maybe it’s something completely different but i don’t care; It’s their private life and they are allowed to choose their friends and if they weren’t meant to be that’s it. And it’s okay. And they don’t own us anything.