I know everyone on Tumblr is happy about pride and I’ve always loved seeing so many people go out and celebrate, and some people even come out, but right now, I need to vent. I hate to do this to my friends, but I’m not attending or participating in pride this year, or maybe not for a few years. My last few years of being out as a happy bisexual haven’t been the best. My first pride, I came out to my close friends and family, and they accepted me. I didn’t see the muttering and the rude behaviors around me when I went to my first pride. I was having fun with my friends and we even went to see a drag show! I was happy with my life, and finally felt at home. I thought my next pride would be even more fun. I was wrong.
This time, I knew of the Bi Erasure, and still went there, pride flag on my back. I noticed the rude looks, and the whispers. I held my head up high, and dealt with it. I met up with my friends, and ignored it all.
Last year, I went to pride alone. I immediately felt like I was wrong for being bisexual. I felt scared that these people laughing behind my back would hurt me. The worst thing was that someone tried to ruin my pride flag, one that I had bought at my first pride. They poured their soda on it, and stepped on it. They laughed in my face, and told me that bisexual was for straight girls who wanted to experiment. I have a message for people who are okay with Bi Erasure. I spent nearly an entire year on a girl who I loved more then anything. I even gave her my first time. If wasting one entire year of my life, and having her leave me, making lasting effects on me to this day is just me experimenting, then maybe you should rethink your own sexuality. I get it. A bisexual male or female hurt you in the past, but we exist. This bullshit has gotten me scared to go somewhere I was supposed to feel safe.
