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Child Loss (Stillbirth) - Series 1/4 I never thought I could talk about this to so many people whom I've never met. But today I want to revisit and open that chapter of my life. Maybe this vulnerability of mine will resonate with some of you who have been through it too. I want to share with you how Grief of losing someone who never cried after I had given birth to her felt, how holding a baby who didn't suckle me gave me immense heart break, how seeing her tiny body wrapped in white cloth, adorned in beautiful aroma laying in her small coffin felt, how burying my baby who I long awaited for emptied me inside out. Noone really understands the grief of this loss except the mother. This series will also continue to share about how I overcame my Grief. How I came out of it. I know she wasn't someone I knew outside the womb, but she was very much part of me, she still is and will always be someone I grieved. I think of my first child Hafsa all the time but today I want to honour her and make space for her on my feed. In 2008 I was pregnant with my first child. I was 22. I prayed for a Girl and on my 4th month we were told she was a girl. I was overjoyed. I knew I wanted my best friend to by my oldest daughter. She was everything I hoped for even before I was married. I always wanted at least one daughter. We had her crib ready gifted from my SIL, my breastfeeding pillow passed down from my bhabi, my rocking chair as a gift from my parents, pairs of clothing and baby essentials ready for my Hospital bag. My moms side and husband's side threw me two baby showers. She was our first and she was celebrated. O adorned my hands with henna and wore beautiful clothes for those showers where so many of our friends and relatives came to celebrate with us. But you know what, ➡️ "We Plan and Allah plans." I felt her kicks, I listened to heart beat sounds and saw her move in the screen of ultrasound imaging. She was very much alive in my womb. She made me a mother before my boys uttered the word "mom". To be continued in part 2 . . #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness #babylosssupport #torontomomblogger #torontomom #muslimmom #canadianmama #childlossawareness (at Toronto, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVGNgaUAWvA/?utm_medium=tumblr

We have put together this little gift for baby loss awareness week (October 9th-15th) £3 from each sell will go to the Aching Arms charity to help aid their fantastic work. For anyone that is feeling loss a small gift to let them know your thinking of them can mean a lot. Plant this little star and watch it bloom in remembrance of your loved one. #plantastar #babylossawareness #babylossawarenessweek #babylosssupport #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #stillbornstillloved #stillbornawareness #mothersloss #childlossawareness #childlosssurvivor #childlossgrief #grievingmother #grievingloss #grieving #babyangels #pulsepointoils #etsyshoppulsepointoils #etsyukseller #hmuk #htlmp #smallgifts #readytopost #letterboxgifts @pulsepointoils @wheatbagheaven (at Pulse Point Oils) https://www.instagram.com/p/CT2SZHoL5Yg/?utm_medium=tumblr

⚠️⚠️⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️ ⚠️⚠️⚠️ PHOTO OF MY SON ⚠️⚠️⚠️ When your child becomes 21 it should be a happy event, birthday parties, balloons, getting so drunk they have to be carried home and getting that symbolic key into adulthood... However when your child is no longer with you, it becomes a day of reflection on what could have been, what he would have looked like, what his personality would have been like, what he would have liked to do.... Today Jack you are 21 and for the first time in 21 years I feel a little lost... Tonight your sister and I will spend time together with some good friends laughing and being joyful because I know that is what you would have wanted.... You would of hated anyone being sad about you.... So today for the first time I am going show his picture.. I've never publicly shown his picture and if it upsets you then I'm sorry, but children come to us in all different ways... You never said ‘I’m leaving’ You never said ‘goodbye’ You were gone before I knew it And only god knew why A million times I’ve needed you A million times I’ve cried If love alone could’ve saved you You never would have died In life I loved you dearly In death I love you still In my heart you hold a place No-one else could ever fill It broke my heart to lose you But you didn’t go alone Part of me went with you The day god took you home Happy birthday Jack.... Kisses in the wind until we meet again my darling boy. Jack Luke Angel 19.08.99 Love mummy x x #babyloss #babylossawareness #babylosssupport #babylosssurvivor #borntoosoon #jacklukeangel (at Hastings, East Sussex) https://www.instagram.com/p/CEEQE8An30y/?igshid=ikdmshbfom4t

October is baby loss awareness month please share your candle of light to remember all the lost infants 🕯 . . . . . . #babylossawareness #babylosssupport #babyloss #baby #angelbaby #childlossawareness #childloss #mumtoangelbaby #dadtoangelbabies https://www.instagram.com/p/B3K06LyHyDX/?igshid=kaj1a186y208

Your never alone…..remembering all those little souls✨
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Leaving hospital after labour and delivery is supposed to be euphoric. As parents you are excited to take home your little bundle of joy, anticipating what lays ahead with sheer happiness (and probably some anxiety too!) Just imagine for a moment that this doesn’t happen. Imagine that you felt the pain of labour for hours. Imagine delivering a still and silent baby. Imagine that when it is time to leave you have to hand the body of your tiny son back to a midwife then walk away forever, empty handed. This was our reality 6 months ago today. After 24 hours with Lumi we had to make our way home without him, all dreams shattered. I took him out of his little Moses basket and held him, sobbing...knowing this was the last time I would see him, the last time I would cradle him, knowing my life would be forever scarred with grief. I told him I loved him then returned him to the care of the midwife. How my legs carried me out of the bereavement suite I will never know. It was the hardest thing I have EVER had to do. The most heartbreaking moment of my life. We came home with empty arms and broken hearts. This picture accurately represents how it feels to be a mother without her child. (Image by Lina Scarfi). This is why I will never stop talking about Lumi. He was here. He was loved. He is still loved and will be forever missed. Nothing will fill the holes in my womb and heart. 💙🌙⭐️ #babyloss #babylossawareness #babylossmum #babylossmama #babylosssupport #babylosscommunity #grief #bereavement #lifeafterloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport #2ndtrimesterloss #16weeks https://www.instagram.com/p/BxxnniSD2_y/?igshid=frqkqewn8kwo

It is Mother’s Day today in the UK 🇬🇧 Yet it be can be a hard day for many people for many different reasons. Some women are only Mother’s for a short period of time & some never get the opportunity again, some never at all & some women never want it…👣 https://helensjourneysite.wordpress.com/2018/03/08/we-are-woman/ CLICK LINK☝️ to read my post all about how biology doesn’t have to stand in the way of you still having the ability to show mothering characteristics & for some still have the role of Mother. I wanted to do a post to celebrate Women having the amazing capacity to nurture & love beyond loss, heartbreak & unmet yearnings. So Happy Mother’s Day to you too ❣️ #mothersday #motherhood #mothersdayuk #babylosssupport #babylossawareness #ectopicpregnancyawareness #infertilityawareness #miscarriageawareness #ectopicpregnancy #womensupportingwomen #girlpower #femaleempowerment #mom #mommymoments #bloggerstribe #bloggingfam #blogginginbed #helensjourney #mother #thepowerofawoman #wonderfulwomen #sharingmystory #inspiremygram #discoverunder5k #messageoftheday #thegirlgang #ontheblog #quoteoftheday #myperspective (at United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvsIlJXJkZP/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=af3wsgspj3y2

I’ve decided to save my rather rambling insta story as a highlight on my account so it can be viewed if you are at all interested. I talked about some of my thoughts and personal experiences of baby loss. Eventually I will be blogging and going into some of the more gritty detail about the loss of our precious Lumi. I will also use the platform to share happier memories of the pregnancy prior to loss as well as the grief that followed it. I’ve learned over the last three months that talking about my boy is so helpful. I want to share my experiences so that others who may experience a similar loss can feel less alone. Our stories are all so unique but there is the common ground of grief following the loss of a much wanted and loved child. If I can help even one person to begin to open up and feel less alone on their journey than I will feel happy. As I said yesterday, there are some incredible people out there sharing their experiences and giving parents the courage to do the same. If you don’t follow them Jess - @thelegacyofleo and Elle - @feathering_the_empty_nest are two of the most inspiring people I have been directed towards and now they are some of my life lines. Seeing how they conduct themselves following their losses gives me hope that one day I might just be ok. 💙🌙⭐️#babyloss #babylossmama #babylosssupport #babylossawareness #babylossmum #babylosssurvivor #babylosscommunity #babylossjourney https://www.instagram.com/merrymunky/p/BuzOCNnAB7E/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1x3si534p37fr