we are literally getting 7x04 redux. buck spinning out over the possibility of losing eddie for reasons that are not eddie’s fault but out of buck’s control. reasons that buck should feel totally normal about but it’s like a knife to the chest. buck voice (to the tune of listen i think it’s great you can’t have enough friends right?) hey i think it’s GREAT! that you’re going to buy a house 800 miles away to be with chris 😃 would you like to hear about the entire geological history of el paso. i learned about it last night for no reason.

post that makes me self conscious but 😭 i just went outside and i could smell the air…… i’ve got a chronic autonomic thing that means for years my sense of smell is like not working right bc my nose is doing whatever side quest but i just started a new treatment regime recently and i can smell more stuff…. OUGH IT BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES the smell of outside!!!!! Its dark and evening!!!! And I’m smelling it!

somewhere near my house is a clock tower that rings a bell for the hour, right? normal? except it never rings at the same time every hour. it just rang 9 times. it’s (theoretically) 9:38. last night as I was getting in bed it rang 10 times at 9:44. sometimes I wake up at or around 3 am to it ringing. it rang at 12:02 the other day… once.