Worked on my project today :3
OH and i guess it’s been 3 days of trying the radical ‘wait, i’m alone at home all day, i should just do what i want?’ And i DID feel better in my feelings but DID also experience such a bad flare that it made me resume my years long battle to get one of my conditions managed that i now mostly ‘live’ with by being mostly housebound and dissociating about it because engaging with the reality of it is so distressing to me, so! Mixed bag 👍
notably though i think i hit probably slightly higher than has been normal ‘doing things on time*’ (*on time is made up, again living alone) and DID feel less stressed which given that lately i’m feeling ‘pickling in my own fear and rancid vibes’ quite a lot of the time, is very good for me. Both for ‘not experiencing that’ and also ‘that is also so bad for my physical conditions in a nasty feedback loop’. So i think i can proceed like this, but ideally trying to make sure i keep on top of position changes often.
I gotta be on top of all the things i can be on top of. But NOT trying to fight my way out of the ones i can’t!!!!!!!!!!!
