let’s make it

Using my awesome powers to do my hobbies (colouring in the first cross stitch pattern I’ve tried, following a tip from my friend that this makes it easier to read) while for some reason finding it as physically and emotionally agonising as if i was like. scrubbing tile grout with a toothbrush or something. Enrichment 👍

dinnereddddddddddd 👍

Not loving the ramping up of extreme mood consequences i am experiencing after anything nice happens now and then i have to return to Not That. Trying not to let it bleed into ~my bloging~ too much but fear i failed today. I will iterate on a protocol but it’s taking time. 🫡

Prefacing this by i am a strong and powerful wizard and i can do anything and i will succeed. But i did get too tired and in pain and hungry and as a consequence Extremely Irritated and i diddddddd as a consequence overcook my dinner by accident AND my kitchen table is covered in my alleged good for me hobby which i used to turn myself evil and incandescent. By spending too much time sitting upright. And what’s the point of this post? Well avoiding tidying up and attempting to eat my perhaps inedible dinner. 😇 i wear thin on myself sometimes it is true. but u can’t win em all! Okay i’ll go tidy up and try eating now 👍

The thing about pinning a loadbearing amount of motivation and initiation ability onto music is what happens when its powers wear off and you have to search for a new potent batch of songs that will enable my life to run. But without the music to get me into motion doing this is. Challenging. Person that functions 👍 :P