#aughhgg

Yknow what if Aziraphale just has immense trauma because of heaven? What if his natural instinct is to do good? What if he feels like he hates himself and everything so fucking much because of liking Crowley and liking the kiss so much because it’s ‘unholy’ or something, and not something good an angel should do? What if he believes that even though it’s all lies? What if he thinks that going back to heaven will make him feel better because he’s so fucking tired of being told what’s right and what’s wrong, and who he can love and who he can’t love- of what he should and shouldn’t do. So traumatized and emotionally exhausted after everything. Shocked by the kiss because it was so sudden instead of a simple gesture like hand holding, a hug, or just talking. What if he’s just tired of it all? What if he just wants to see Crowley happy again like he was when he was an angel?

What if Aziraphale wants to be happy again without feeling such disgusting guilt inside, and hating himself for it? He loves everyone so much, and doesn’t make room for himself.

Yknow? What if he’s just scared?

The coffee theory is kinda eh. I only might like it to think azira doesn’t feel or think any of this when he surely does.

There so cute I love them so much especially when there little microscopic.

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