you've always been quiet and it's hard for you to talk to people and make friends

however, you still feel lonely because of the lack of communication

that's why you decided to go on a date with someone from host club

you chose Kyoya because you liked the quiet and cool image of him and he looked reliable enough

at first, you were simply another client to him, just another name with schedule in his notebook. choosing the 'cool type' for a quiet person is natural

during the first dates his act is perfect, he pours you tea, he smiles at you and expects you to giggle, blush and leave

but you barely speak

and he realizes you chose him not to be charmed but to have someone who wouldn't overwhelm you

he starts minding his own business about host club on your dates because you needed time to get used to his presence and he could finally use this time for something useful

when you start to talk more, trust him, Kyoya falters

when you talk he listens carefully, not pretending to like he sometimes does with other clients

he sometimes makes notes. when you mentioned crowded places make you anxious he wrote down, 'avoid festivals and scheduling near large events'

you quickly become attached to him because he's the only person you can calmly talk to

when you say, 'sorry... i don't know what to tell you today...'

he just replies, 'don't worry. i can be the one who's talking. you don't mind?'

one day you told Kyoya about your fears, your loneliness, how hard for you is talking

'i know this is your job... i know you're kind to me because you're kind to all your clients. i know that the tea, the compliments and the time we spend together it's all part of the host club...'

'but i wanted you to know. even if it's all part of your job... it means something for me. i'm grateful', you said once

Kyoya looked at you. you believed that your gratitude was the only thing you could offer and it was probably worthless, but you were wrong

he wanted to say something professional but couldn't

you raised your eyes to his. he didn't smile because he realized it's the first time he's going to be completely genuine with you

'not everything here is perfomance', he simply said

you stared at him with confusion

'perhaps it was too vague. allow me to clarify. when you first came here, you were a client. but you asked me questions no one else asked. you trusted me with your fears. that's not nothing for me', he continued

'i'm not pretending when i say this. your presence here is not a burden and your quietness is not a flaw'

this meant a lot to you

bonus:

three girls, your classmates and regulars for the host club approached you

'y/n-chan! we've seen you here so many times! you always pick Kyoya-kun, right?', one of them asked with excitement

'um', was the only this you managed to say

'so, you like the smart and cool type? and he's so handsome, isn't he? so composed... not as flashy as Tamaki-kun', said the other one

'Tamaki-kun is definitely better!', said the third one

'but you're always so loyal! you choose Kyoya every single time. that's really sweet!'

'yeah... i guess, Kyoya is my favorite', you mumbled

'you know, you should try someone else! just once', one of them said

'what?'

'it's okay! it's not like you're betraying Kyoya-kun. it's just the host club'

but you thought about it

you were already used to Kyoya, you were sure about him and his recations. it was too scary to go with someone else

'i guess... i won't', you told them

you've been thinking, 'if not Kyoya, then who?'

everyone else seemed wrong. too chaotic.

Haruhi looked calm and understanding but you couldn't imagine starting everything over and go to the beginning

on your next date with Kyoya you told him everything

'the other girls... said i should try someone else, a different host. they said it's normal and a lot of girls do that'

Kyoya tensed but he didn't show it

'i see. what did you say?', he asked calmly

'i realized... um. i don't want to try someone else. i thought about everyone, Tamaki-senpai, Kaoru and Hikaru, Haruhi... none of them felt right. it took me long enough to get comfortable with you'

'i don't want anyone else. is it weird?', you asked quietly

'no, it's not weird', he adjusted his glasses

'many clients choose one favorite host and meet exclusively with that person. i personally track these preferences and document them', his tone was clinical and professional

'are there many girl who have you as their favorite?', you asked without thinking

Kyoya blinked

'sorry... it was a stupid question'