#aster studies

I have a virtual meet and greet with my department tomorrow at 11, and for that everybody gotta switch on their cameras. Which means I will have to wake up a little earlier to make myself look presentable. Which means I should go to sleep right now.

Finally started on my Human Development notes that I had been procrastinating on for so long. And it feels so good!

I don't have the energy to click a decent picture, so instead here's the snapchat streak I sent to my friends.

Was studying the historical views of childhood in brief, and I like how there have been 3 different views totally contradicting each other, and none of them have been proven right by evidence.

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I have a maths viva today, which means I spent my week catching up with the maths that I had abandoned two months ago. I believe I know enough to make my way through but for some reason I am super not-confident. Maths scares me. The only things driving me through are the sticky notes on my wall, one of which has the name of the college I'm aiming for on it, and another mentions how this will be my last maths exam ever. The relief I am gonna get after this alone is driving me to do my best.

I finally got my books, and that means I can study for real now!! But its still so confusing, because there's so many books and so many information and oof.

My classes end at 4:30 pm, and after that I am too tired to sit down and study immediately, so I need to start taking out proper time to study so that I can do more than one small subtopic per day.😖

I gave two entrance exams for this university that I really want to get into, so fingers crossed they'll take me in. Other than that, I don't have any hopes from the colleges that are taking merit-based admissions, because I can't reach the cutoffs that they're gonna come out with.

If I don't get into this university, I will probably have to study something other than Psychology, and I am just not ready. My parents think its alright but like...this is what I want a career in! And yeah so I'm not sure what I want to do as a profession and if I'll even stick to Psychology or deviate from it, but for now its my only passion. I can't imagine NOT getting to study psychology at all. Its so scary.

Add to it the fact that my friends have already started with their colleges, and I'm not even sure if I'll get in somewhere. Oof.

Anyways here's a picture from my study sessions last week.

I am writing this a day later so for today, I choose to use my time in a worthwhile manner.

I had a decent to-do list of which I completed nothing :)

But its a start and I won't use productivity as a stick to beat myself with. Plus I made cookies! It was time well spent, even if it wasn't spent studying.

I also worked on my WIP so now I'm a little ahead of where I was, i.e. progress!

<click for better quality> My table is stained with ink please ignore. (I just realised I used a really bad filter but meh what can we do now)

Day One: Tell us a little bit about yourself! What classes are you currently taking, if any? If not, what are you currently studying or what is your current long term productive projects or goals?

College finally started and I am soo excited to start this new journey with new people! It is still online but the excitement remains XD

I finallllly gave my DSD2 exam for the B2/C1 level German diploma today, and I can't say how it went. I can just assure myself that I didn well enough to get a C1 in all 3 Teilen. The Mündliche Kommunikation Teil (verbal communication) is still left, and that is the one that scares me the most. I swear I want to cry just thinking about it.😭 There will be an impromptu 3-5 speech, the topic for which will be given 20 minutes beforehand and I won't get to use a dictionary or google translate (on which I am totally dependent). Plus then it will be followed by a round of questions, and then another after I give my presentation on my chosen topic. That is a lottt of impromptu German and I suck at remembering the meanings of words and I cannot make a sentence right away without stopping to think about it and oh my god this is not good. I just wish to be done with it soon with as little of humiliating myself as possible.

Now that college is on, you will see me a bit more regularly here as I go back into my old, familiar routine and leave behind the uncertainties and irregularities of that transitory period between school and college. :)

Feel like signing off nicely.

So,

I finally got my books, and that means I can study for real now!! But its still so confusing, because there's so many books and so many information and oof.

My classes end at 4:30 pm, amd after that I am too tired to sit down and study immediately, so I need to start taking out proper time to study so that I can do more than one small subtopic per day.😖