Stuff about myself I'm starting to realize isn't just taken out of thin air...
The way I consciously make myself smile at strangers no matter my own mood.
The need I have “to land” between tasks or situations—requiring 10–15 minutes to readjust my mindset for what’s next and/or process what came before.
How I can crave being alone yet near others (e.g., sitting solo in a café), because I need both the sensory input of city life and the no-strings-attached tranquillity of solitude.
How I prefer going to the same cafés, sitting in the same place, and ordering the same two or three items.
How I’m able to (or rather unable not to) tune out and simply not see messes at home.
How I often forget or misplace things I was literally holding 60 seconds ago.
How even perceived rejection or criticism causes physical pain.
How I frequently ruminate over social interactions, convinced I’ve made a fool of myself or seemed overbearing.
How food decisions sometimes overwhelm me, leading me to eat one or two kinds of meals for breakfast, lunch, and dinner for weeks on end.
How having too many choices in everyday situations leaves me paralyzed and overwhelmed.
How, when someone asks where to meet for coffee, I can’t give a straight answer and always reply, “You decide” (and hope they do!).
How I need music or a podcast playing to feel at ease when going to bed.
How, as a child, I had an exaggeratedly short and explosive temper (which I’ve learned to tame but still feel the urge of).
How I can listen to the same song—or a small selection—on repeat almost obsessively for periods of time.
How I feel both emotionally and physically connected to the music I listen to.
How I experience emotions “at 100 % volume.”
How I tend to cry from strong emotions, both positive and negative.
How, more often than not, I experience a pervasive sense of overwhelm in life.
How wearing the “wrong” clothes can make me so uncomfortable and sad that I want to (and sometimes do) cry until I find the “right” outfit that feels like me.
How having one or two “anchor” garments (like a favorite scarf or a perfect pair of shoes) can instantly calm me and help me breathe easy.
My immense difficulty sticking to the topic and tendency to go off on tangents when talking to someone about pretty much anything.
