#aspergers?

Uh, just checking, but consciously copying the behaviours of others is something everyone does, right? Something everyone remembers doing as a child? Right? Right?

I actually spend a considerable amount of time being afraid someone finds out how little I care about people in general and how often I have to remind myself to show interest in them because I naturally have none.

Today I saw the new therapist for a second time and she half-decided that I'm somewhere on the autism spectrum? Maybe some sort of mild aspergers? I think she's wrong, but it was definitely a little weird how aspects of my personality lined up such that she made that connection.

Alright, well... I don't like it when tumblrs get too personal, so it's hypocritical of me to post this, but here's the thing.  A "professional" recently suggested to me that I could be on the Autism spectrum.  Whatever that really means. She left me to do my own research.  Some of the characteristics I've seen attributed to Autism are: "Talks excessively about one or two topics" and "obsessions with objects, ideas, or desires."  So... maybe that's why my interests are pretty narrow-ish?  For example, that I only like two or three bands at a time and stuff like that?  But, I still like having a Tumblr.  I just feel self-conscious about how repetitive and slow it is.  But I feel a bit better, having written out these feelings.  Even though I don't think anyone comes to Tumblr to read these kinds of posts.

I am so tired and worn out from being in that noisy class room I really hate this.