#artistrant

First of all, I want to say thank you to @thelovelystarco (I cannot find him/her for some reason) for featuring my fan art on his/her account. Secondly, why can't I get that many likes on my own account? 😭 Especially because I'm the one who drew it... I mean, not to be selfish or anything but c'mon... an artist deserve more or equally at least... This is my first most favourite fan art/sketch by people on my Tumblr with over 1500+ Notes. Idk about on DeviantART but people still pressing the "Favourite" button until now. My reaction to this was like "Holy crap! Somebody feature my fan art. Thaaankkk yoouuuu!!!" I am happy, grateful and thankful because people enjoy my MOST BASIC SKETCH COMIC THAT I DON'T EVEN WANT TO FINISH IT. Hell, my personal project don't even got "1 Note" on Tumblr that I work for 2 days with proper linework, colour and background. Meanwhile I finished this fan art in one hour. I'm kinda disappoint with myself because NOBODY enjoy my own personal arts, my own Tumblr, DeviantART or Instagram. Sigh. Nevertheless, I want to thank everyone who enjoy this piece even though nobody would notice it if I post it on my own Instagram account. The highest like on my own account is 77 Likes. Like what the bloody hell..?

Sempai told me that I have to use Ibis Paint for digi art and might make money. I agree but with my current situation of stress and anxiety of my work and living with people and during quarantine... Don't have the willpower. I could've used my time doing digi art even using fingers, but lacking motivation is such a downer. I was gonna order a stylus pen for all kind of phones, but I can't afford it online. And they don't do COD. 😭 This drawing was made months ago, when I have the motivation to do it. It needs more details, I know. Maybe I need a place of my own with family restrictions. . . #artist #artistrant #emotionalstress #digitalart #ibispaintx #fingerart #oc #art #animedrawing #animestyle #animeart #artoftheday #artoninstagram #artonig #artistsoninstagram #quarantinefeels #moody #speedpaint #speedart https://www.instagram.com/p/CAxuYKxDnCW/?igshid=1ghqlsgnq85ef

What a difference a few hours can make. Sometimes things go pretty fast. Normally it takes a long time to finish each painting. But this time the layers seemed to want to go down. It isn't finished btw. It still needs a little something, or several little somethings. That'll work itself out as I go. Maybe the difference is, this piece is smaller and I'm using it to work out which colors I want to use for another more involved piece. (Ultramarine blue is definitely out! It looks too purple next to all that blue and green.) Soooo, I'm not as anxious about how it turns out, and I am free to try things out just to see how it looks. That's probably what really takes the most time. All the tiny decisions along the way. Considering all the elements in play. Maybe I'll get to a point where paint effortlessly leaves my brush and everything turns out just the way I want it to, but I'm not holding my breath for that to happen. I already catch myself holding my breath when I'm painting details. #artistrant #wip #tentacles #blueandgreen #deepbluesea #seamonster #octopus #cephalopod #merman #cthulhu #Lovecraft #Innsmouth

Up now at the #UWImuseum, an exhibition of the A.D Scott collection, including the lovely letter to the editor reply from Alvin Marriott in relation to his once controversial statue at Olympia. #jamaica #UWI #artistrant #iloveit (at UWI Museum)

TED Talk number two that I found really inspiring and relevant to being an artist -- and how skills learned in theatre can be applied to the non-theatre world! Diffusing fear and being in love with the world! This is Rebecca Northan, who is a performer I have MAD respect for! She is creative, funny, her TED talk is brilliant, AND I had to follow her performance in the role of Annie and Shelly in Evil Dead: The Musical with Hit and Myth and Ground Zero Productions in Calgary, so there was pressure to not suck! Haha. 

Things will get better, I believe. I have to believe that. I've come too far to just give up and start waiting tables again.