Finding out very recently that our system grew up as a feral child with clinical lycanthropy is so hard for us. Our alters and even some age sliders (myself included) and lots of littles have regressed or pet regressed involuntarily we often black out or go into severe dissociative trances and the next minute we find out we've destroyed half the living room furniture thankfully our caregiver live in aid understands our complex trauma and how we were raised (or lack thereof) since once we were able to come out of it some other alters explained calmly that we were more or less raised by our pet dogs after being left out for hours on end to days in the backyard and yeah its really a lot on our shoulders. Being raised by dogs and I think one time our captors (the family) even adopted a half wolf half dog that more or less took to us our system since we were very young still so we never managed to snap out of our involuntary pet regression. It sucks so bad and it hurts that we cannot control this part of our programming but idk man...it just sucks but being a dog owned by three cats as my emotional support animals they really understand me and they sense I have lycanthropy and that in a way have raised me as much as we've raised them. My cats aren't my pets I dont feel comfortable calling myself a pet owner since I once was a pet myself my cats are my pack I am their family members in their pack and our system was raised by dogs/wolf and my cats are my family. My brothers and sisters. I'm sorry if this is very triggering I know this blog is mostly supposed to be a safe space for our littles but we already have so many other Tumblr accounts. This is also our autistic advocacy blog too for our autistic experiences.