#armyboyfriend

I miss you so much and I'm laying in bed super early just thinking about how perfect you are and how much it sucks that you're gone. I can't wait to get a letter from you. The sheer ecstasy of knowing you care is something else. I'm not used to being loved and I hope to god you meant what you said before you left. You're worth the wait, as long as I make it that far. We got this baby. I love you so much. Please just come home and cuddle because every day away from you is getting harder and harder. I've never felt like this with anyone. Where the thought of her name puts a smile on my face. Where I can't stop smiling when she does that stupid little chipmunk voice and sings "tiptoe through the tulips". The cute was she blushes and gets a that big grin on her face when I make her smile. Ahhhhhhhhhh come home baby. I need you to make it through the night...

Lately people have been asking me, how I can go so long without seeing my SO or hearing from him or talking to him as much as I'd like. But the thing I hear most is, how can I go without sex. And seriously. It's not hard at all. Having sex with him wasn't about the getting physical part (although that was great too) it was about connecting on a different level, it was not lust or anything else. It was love. Pure love. And my advice is, if you're in a relationship for sex, that's toxic. It isn't going anywhere, might as well just go for the casual sex from anyone than pretending you love them. And yes. I do make jokes about being sexually deprived. Because I am. But I'm okay with that, I don't have to lower myself to, cheating, or "taking care of myself" because dammit I'm in love with the man. Not the idea of him. And not what he does to me. People need to learn the difference between lust, and love. Because they are so different. I'm tired of all these sexually crazed people thinking that's all I want him for. I wonder how all these people would manage to keep relationships without sex. COMMUNICATE.

I will literally bawl my eyes out if I don't get to see mangoweed this weekend :'( He's going away for 5 weeks and there'll be no form of communication when he's there. "They were inseparable, but always separated."