Summary: “What is going on inside the head of my fearless Nephilim?” Magnus mumbles, his eyes fluttering open. He looks up and meets those beautiful hazel eyes with a fond smile.
“You,” Alec kisses his head again, tightening his hold of Magnus. “Always you.”
Well, after so much angst in this dashboard... I had the idea to write this after listening to Loved You Before by Natalie Taylor. It took me some time due to work, but here it is! And the timing was good too. @aria-lerendeair, I hope this cheer you up, even if it’s just a little bit. You are awesome and deserve to smile and be happy <3 @just-another-lightwood-bane This is also for you for being there in that angst train about Magnus. I hope you like it!
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Snow falls slowly, painting New York’s streets with the calmness of Winter. A high contrast from the dark night blackening the starless sky. The cold air crawls between buildings, powerless against the coziness inside the High Warlock of Brooklin’s loft. Even inside, there is a peaceful scent, a comfortable silence and just a dim light coming from the main bedroom.
Magnus is curled around Alec, his head resting on the Shadowhunter’s chest and one arm on his waist. Alec holds him protectively, feeling like his whole world is there between his arms. Their legs are entwined and their hearts beating almost as one.
Alec tilts his head a bit, tracing his boyfriend’s hairline with the tip of his nose before gently kissing his hair, the sandalwood fragrance easing his worries for a moment. Magnus is still weak and pale, resting after dealing with a high fever, but the worst part is gone and his love isn’t in danger anymore. It has been a close call after Magnus was poisoned due to a demon attack, but thanks to the Angel the antidote is working and soon his dear Warlock would be good to go and to worry the shit of him again as always. It seems Izzy, Jace, and Magnus are the kind of package made to give him all kinds of heart attacks and endless rolling eyes, but…
They are the package Alec loves more than anything else in the world, and he knows he would die for them without thinking twice.
His long fingers caress his boyfriend’s arm, and he can’t stop thinking about how lucky he is. He is in love with the most beautiful and powerful and kindest man in the entire world. And Magnus loves him back with the same earnest and pure strength. As many times before, Alec ponders what he has done to deserve that. He always thought he would never love and be loved by anyone. He was ready to shut down and live until a demon pierced through his heart and he died an honorable death while in duty. Now? He fights with all he has to make sure he will come back home at the end of the day. Because he has someone waiting for him. He has a home. However, his home is not the loft somewhere in Brooklin.
His home is a Downworlder with mesmerizing cat eyes, sparkling clothes and hair, blue glow and a smile which melts every fear, anger, cold and worries of his body. With Magnus, Alec smiles. Rests. Feels. Dreams.
Alec is.
“What is going on inside the head of my fearless Nephilim?” Magnus mumbles, his eyes fluttering open. He looks up and meets those beautiful hazel eyes with a fond smile.
“You,” Alec kisses his head again, tightening his hold of Magnus. “Always you.”
“Sappy,” Magnus purrs, smiling contently. He pushes himself up, just enough to peck Alec’s lips. He lingers a little, feeling Alec’s calm breath. Then, he faintly brushes their lips, slowly, tentatively, again and again until Alec can’t hold anymore and deepens the contact.
They kiss for a while, just feeling each other. Minutes later, somehow sated, they go back to their previous position.
“Remember when Clary told us about the other dimension?” Alec asks, caressing Magnus’ hair.
“The one where my fashion style is non-existent and you burned your closet before even entering it?”
Alec snorts at that, rolling his eyes.
“Yeah, that one. Do you think…” The Shadowhunter’s voice is soft, barely a whisper, but Magnus can hear him perfectly. “Do you think they also found their way to each other?” Do you think they also fell in love with each other? It is what he really wanted to ask.
“Perhaps. Biscuit said she couldn’t see much of what was happening, but she had the impression we both were pretty smitten with each other. And that you were flirting with me.” Magnus grins. If it wasn’t so invasive, he would love to check Clary’s memories just to watch that.
Alec chuckles, trying to not think about how warm his face is right now. “I hope they get together like us. At least there aren’t demons in that dimension, so they can have a peaceful life.”
Magnus catches the hint of anguish in his boyfriend’s voice and looks up at him again.
“Alexander, if this is about yesterday, I swear I am—“
“It’s not that,” Alec cuts him, but soon shakes his head. “I mean, it is, but…” He absentmindedly licks his lips. “I guess it’s inevitable. We, my siblings, our friends… We will always have this shadow threatening to suffocate us if we aren’t careful enough. I… I was just thinking. There might be more dimensions out there, right? Different universes. Sometimes I like to think we meet and get together in each and all of them.”
“Did Samuel and Isabelle make you watch another sci-fi marathon?” Magnus lifts one brow, amused.
“I’m serious, okay?” Alec scoffs, but there is some endearment in his expression. “I know that it’s impossible for us to be together or happy in all dimensions, but… But it would be good if we are in most of them. Because I think… I… I believe there is no world where I wouldn’t love you.”
Magnus’ expression softens so much and his heart feels so full, he barely holds his glamour. What he did to deserve this man?
“Do you think it would be different if we have met earlier?” Alec continues, again nudging his nose against Magnus’ hair. God, he loves Magnus’ smell.
“If we did, you would be a child, and it wouldn’t be good.” Magnus quips, and Alec snorts but smiles nonetheless.
“But I have a feeling you would have waited for me anyway.”
“Oh, darling. I’ve waited centuries for someone like you. And now, I’ve finally found you.”
“Look who is the sappy one now,” Alec feels himself blushing again, but mumbles anyway. “Thank you for not giving up on me,” embracing Magnus a bit more, he kisses his forehead wishing to transmit everything he is feeling. “I love you so much, Magnus.”
Magnus smiles. He is whole, so full of love for this Shadowhunter that sometimes he doesn’t know how to take such happiness.
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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 2/13
Fandom: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood
Characters: Magnus Bane, Alec Lightwood, Maryse Lightwood, Isabelle Lightwood, Jace Wayland, Clary Fray, Lilith (Shadowhunter Chronicles), Meliorn (Shadowhunter Chronicles)
Additional Tags: Prince of Hell Magnus Bane, Wingfic, Some Nephilim have wings, Bad Parent Maryse Lightwood, Demon Deals, Alec makes a deal to save his sister, Domestic Hell AU, Domestic Boyfriends, Bodyguard Romance, Bodyguard Alec Lightwood, BAMF Magnus Bane, BAMF Alec Lightwood, This is a domestic prince of hell AU, Getting Together, Love Confessions, Immortal Husbands, BAMF Isabelle Lightwood, Alec saves the day, Asmodeus does not appear in this fic, Inexperienced Alec Lightwood, Slow Burn (kinda), Protective Alec Lightwood, Magnus is lonely, Frottage, Making Out, Biting, Marking, handjobs
Summary:
When a Nephilim descends into Edom, alone, Magnus orders that the angel be brought to him. After all, the Nephilim never attacked without a plan and he had other problems to worry about it.
But when the angel informs him that he's there to fulfill the terms of a deal, well. Magnus might just have to find a way to twist things to his advantage.
I just watched your first appearance in Critical Role (recently got into D&D and the show), and your reaction upon rolling the Nat20 in the second episode was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I laughed so hard I nearly fell off my couch. Thank you for that, thank you for existing, and I wish many more Nat 20's in your future!
I’m pretty sure I have not rolled a natural 20 since then.
@aria-lerendeair replied to your post “@ausllymonkey replied to your post “I really want to write the fix-it...”
I fully support this. Please do write it and let me know if you need a cheerleading squad. (I needed it for writing mine, ugh.)
@aria-lerendeair replied to your post “I really want to write the fix-it fic where several months into their...”
I would loooooove to see your take on that conversation (having written my own not too long ago), because it’d be amazing, and dammit, long overdue!
oh yeah i have so many thoughts! my main problem is that i really want to dig into the inevitable trust issues on magnus’ end.Â
as much as i harp on the agency issues in 3b, there is so much about the breakup that is never touched upon again. magnus bared all his weakness and insecurities to alec and was completely blindsided when alec used them to make the breakup convincing. of all the people magnus might have expected to use that kind of information against him, he never once saw it coming from alec. and nothing can convince me that the next time he goes to share himself with alec, magnus won’t remember it, too, and maybe think twice.
(on a personal level, it’s my opinion that a lot of what went into their breakup comes close to skirting a line that can’t be uncrossed. i project a lot onto magnus because he’s my fave, and if someone had gone and made a major life decision for me and then used the things i told them in confidence to make it stick, well...regardless of how good the intentions were there’s a good chance i would not let that person back into my life. or at least not without a lot of groveling and an explicitly stated promise to never ever do it again)
but at the same time i don’t want the fic to be too one-sided. alec’s intentions were actually good and made from love, and part of the reason he devalued himself so much in magnus’ long life is because when the immorality discussion came up, magnus wouldn’t talk to him.Â
so long story short, the issues between the two of them are a massive gordian knot that went completely unresolved and unspoken about during the finale, and tackling that is a completely separate fic. there’s A LOT there and it’s complicated and they each shoulder part of the blame for their misunderstandings and communications breakdown. i’m not sure i can write about just that one issue without getting sucked into the rest.
haha so yeah, it’s all a delicate balancing act that i don’t know if i’m up to.
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Instead of steady stream of complaints about Fanon!Alec, I'd like to shift the conversation to something more positive and uplifting to writers. (I find the existing conversation degrading and upsetting as an author, personally, because none of what is being discussed tells me what I need to do differently, or better.) In your opinion, what are 3-5 things authors could do to help flesh out Alec's character more in their stories?
… no offense dude but this is my blog, and i’m gonna answer these asks in whatever way i want, im not telling people to come here and AGREE with me about the way alec is portrayed. none of this conversation is a diss to authors i respect all of you a lot, but at the end of the day it’s just my opinion, i don’t call anyone out personally because i don’t read fics, if people come here complaining about something THEY read and i agree that’s how i’m gonna answer. 3-5 things to help flesh out alec? im not gonna tell you how to write him or how to portray him “better” do your thing have fun im just another person saying shitÂ
I just wanted to say that I’m a huge fan of your fics and I saw you reblogged a few of mine that I did for the Alec Lightwood Birthday Bash week, and I wanted to say THANK YOU, and you’re amazing and I hope you never stop writing. :) Have a great day/night!
I think it’s ME who should be thanking YOU for writing so many wonderful stories that day! (and, you know, all the other days too, I absolutely adore your writing!) Those were all so wonderful and I’m glad you shared them!!Â
(but also ahhhhh, thank you! <3 I don’t think I could ever stop writing if I tried so we should be safe there) <3Â
Hey Draws! I found some of your art that was saved and reposted to a facebook community without a source. (Your watermark is on there, but no link to your blog or the original post.) I'd like to post your response to this ask in the thread showing people what an artist thinks of this sort of thing happening. Could you help me out?
Ah, well that just blows my gaskets. Thanks for telling me! and of course you can post my response! Here goes:
I understand that you might think that sharing my art with other people can be flattering to the artist and that you are doing me a favor by sharing it and posting it elsewhere. But it really isn’t. All reposting of my art is doing is removing my control over my own works and re-appropriating them without my permission. I have removed most of my fan works from even my own blog for this exact reason- too many people think that it’s okay to just repost an artwork they found on the internet without giving any thought to the creator. This kind of behavior actively discourages artists to continue making art for the fan community and I personally know many artists that have stopped participating in fandom because of this. It’s not flattering, it’s not supporting the artist, all it is is plain disrespectful.
If you want to repost an artwork to facebook or blog or website? Ask the artist’s permission first. If you can’t contact them or reach them, Just. Don’t. Do. It.
