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Earlier I guess I hit a point where I decided I don't care what's appearing anymore, I'm not going to base my reality or truth on it and I decided I'm in my home reality now. External appearances simply have no meaning to me or my identity. Then when body was patting my cat, there was anxiety again (a trigger that kept appearing no matter how i tried to logic it before in the past) and in the state of not caring or identifying with anything, I saw "how can this fear be true or real when I am already in my home reality? How can the fear be real when there's nothing to fear in the first place and there's only love?". The feeling of fear was strong but I decided to just let it be there since it wasn't real anyway (like why would you try to fight shadows? It won't accomplish anything and it's not necessary since it's not real anyway). Like, the fear was there but there was no secondary emotional reaction (like more fear or resistance) to the fear itself. This wasn't coming from ego mental logic actually but a deep sense of understanding and knowing that overcame me and in that instance of seeing, the anxiety melted away right then and there and I was so surprised, isn't that what shifting is? Like I just knew I shifted. I actually did logically see this before but it never happened like this, I guess this is Self's doing, it wasn't from ego at all. It was all happening on its own. There was no trying or doing for an outcome, it was simply seeing through the false and understanding that it was illusion and not real. Just wow, things can be so easy and effortless when ego is out of the way!!!

Second example later.. the body was experiencing some anxiety again later and I just let it be without trying to calm it down then decided to try to use the same thing as before and see the anxiety in chest as unreal but then understood that any effort to see it as unreal is unnecessary since it's already unreal and the effort sustains the illusion so I let go and let it be and it immediately disappeared??? No calming techniques needed. Wow it's so much more interesting just letting everything be and just observing... By trying to let go, you're being someone who has something to be let go of.. the only real response is no response at all. Just silence, no involvement and letting things be.

"Any “doer” action reinforces the doer. Dropping all strategies leaves only silence, which is where Self is naturally apparent without needing to be “embodied.”" -- from Aster

Thanks for sharing!

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this corner of the internet is a very big discourse space, so lemme make a byf. i havent made one of these for real since i was 16

BYF

- im a grown adult of 21 years. if this makes you uncomfortable then you dont gotta follow 🙏🏻

- im not a c!dream sympathizer, i just wanna fuck him. so bad

- i don't like people who suck, i just like their characters

- i don't care if the CCs don't like shipping. i don't think jschlatt is gonna find tumblr user smpaffliction and get upset about smplive yaoi

- i think we should all be nicies!! fandom is meant to be fun!!

Nomad - Super Fuzz

"... it's a germanium Fuzzrite! Either from late 1966 or early 1967. It shares the exact same guts as my longtime germanium Mosrite Fuzzrite from the same era, and pretty much the same tone. ...

cool little detail to mention about the Nomad Super Fuzz is that if it legitimately has a 1966/67 production date then it would predate the Univox Super Fuzz by at least a year, and was just a few months behind the Marshall Supa Fuzz. Which means that this is the very first pedal ever called "Super Fuzz", if we don't count the Marshall, that is."