Yeshe followed all the cult's rules, including those regarding relationships, where in a relationship could only be established with the blessing of an Emissary (provided it was between two members). Emissaries were permitted to impregnate cult members in order to perpetuate their lineage. Relationships were to exist solely and exclusively for the reproduction of members, and could not extend to anything beyond that, lest they be deemed acts of lust. Consequently, relationships that could not result in reproduction, such as same-sex relationships, were strictly forbidden.

One day, sitting beside his friend, they were engaging in idle chatter. It seemed like just another ordinary day for them. Yeshe had finished his seminar for the day. Dolion chatting away as always, playing with his own hair, and using the pink crochet hook he had received from his late grandmother, accidentally let slip that he had feelings for Yeshe.

Yeshe, confused by his friend's words, looked at him and frowned, immediately stepping back. Without thinking, the boy with the white and green hair began to complain about the situation. He argued that he shouldn't even be seen walking with Dolion anymore, given his reputation. He shouldn't even be there at all, if anyone had overheard something like that, his goal of following in his father's footsteps would be completely shattered the moment they learned of Dolion's attempt to lead him into sin. Annoyed, he blurted out thoughtless remarks to his friend, words that infuriated Dolion and unleashed a second wave of all the hatred he had been harboring deep inside against the Emissaries.

A few days passed, and Yeshe and Dolion were not speaking to each other. Dolion was worse than in previous weeks, doing everything within his power to irritate the Emissaries; seeing his childhood friend self-destructing like that gnawed at him from the inside, making him feel guilty, for deep down, he felt that it was his fault.

Resolved, Yeshe woke up one day and, before heading to his seminary, rushed to Dolion's quarters within the cult; he searched for him, but all he found was a blond emissary consoling the boy's mother. Then he made a discovery: on the very day he intended to ask his friend for forgiveness, the friend had been executed.

Years passed, and living with his guilt, Yeshe grew closer to the Aragon family as a way to atone for it. He vowed to himself that he would not let his impulses get the better of him, and that he would be as kind and helpful as possible. This did not please the other emissaries in the slightest; they felt that by being so lenient with the members, he might give them the latitude to flout the rules (explained very poorly I'm so sorry).

So, the first time Yeshe went to one of the neighboring towns to procure supplies, he was captivated to see a Giver for the very first time. He didn't know what it was; he simply found the way it functioned to be beautiful. Amidst the crowd, watching the uniformed group, all wearing the same symbol on their backs, he ended up being left behind by his two companions. It seemed impossible for this to happen accidentally, given their distinctive attire, unless it had been intentional. His two companions had abandoned him there because he would be one less thing to worry about when the integrity of the cult was at stake. Realizing he was alone and being his first time outside he knew he would not be able to find his way back on his own.

Listening to the people speaking in the crowd, he realized that the Cleaners helped people. Following the giver he had found, he eventually ended up at the Cleaners' North Wing Headquarters. It was a strict rule that he was not allowed to converse with others—since it was his first time there and he lacked proficiency in his second language, knowing only Latin—yet he needed help to get back home. He decided to ask the receptionist for help. After a lengthy conversation, during which she struggled to decipher what Yeshe was saying in a mix of his the current language and Latin, the receptionist allowed him to spend the night at the Headquarters, as it was very late and the surrounding area was considered dangerous due to its proximity to a Polluted Zone.