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When you deal with anxiety with fam
Sister: I will pay you $25 to come with me, talk on my behalf to the counselor to let her know I have anxiety and cannot communicate properly.
Me, an unemployed bean that is in need of money: No. I don't want to.
The beauty of anxiety + anxiety = more anxiety
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i always rly dislike not hearing anything back from my supervisors for a few days when i've sent them some work. like just a confirmation email they got it would do !!! i just get all anxious and stressed abt what the silence means but the silence doesnt mean anything but silence.... but like !! they askd me to send them the work this week so i feel like they must have been up for checking their emails but what can u do
Nothing like waking up at 5:45am with the crushing weight of existential dread
The only way I cope going outside.
Pretending I'm deaf and blind. I am shortsighted so I need to see but what I see is not what I already know. I don't need to know how many people stare at me; it makes me panic. I don't want to have a quiet mind outside or else the anxiety overtakes my human rationale to function incognito and away from people's talks. I plug in my ears and blast away loud music. It helps divert my attention from being outside and lets me focus on my tasks one by one, without having to feel the pressure of accidental glances or hearing mumbo jumbo.
Out of sight; out of mind.
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I like to listen to this when I’m freakin out. I think it’s cause I’ve heard it in the climax of so many movies; I associate it with a happy ending, an everything is gonna be alright kinda feeling. And also, you know, the lyrics.
things I am:
almost got the first three days of class done (five ~15-min lectures down, 35 to go)
(actually, it’s a REAL good thing I’m re-recording all of the lectures because I actually do have a lot more to talk about (but also more efficiently, because I also know what’s important on the slides from lecturing from them at least two other times now))
exTREMely anxious re: wisdom teeth
very nauseated
pretty tired
things I am not:
decisive about readings (I’m trying to replace some of this other textbook with other chapters from elsewhere because the textbook is fine but super minimal, and the last time I taught this course the textbook was the primary source of readings and I DON’T WANT TO MAKE MY STUDENTS BUY A TEXTBOOK)
done with my course calendar (I need to finish that (i.e., pick/scan readings) to do the intro/logistics lecture, and once I do those two things plus one more content lecture, the first three days of class will be TOTALLY DONE)
coping well with anxiety
crying (yet)
well-fed (need to eat dinner before the gym BUT nauseated)
throwing up
for some reason I thought that reading articles about the process of wisdom teeth extracting (like, dentists’ and oral surgeons’ sites for what to expect and recovery stuff, not the actual thing, because the actual thing would WAY gross me out) would make me feel better, but it’s having the opposite effect because I’m also pretty stressed about having to get things done before and afterward
Anxiety Post 1#
My doctor told me writing out my thoughts and keep an anxiety journal would help me through the process of getting over my anxiety so might as well put this to good use on Tumblr right?
So it's been a good few days since I've had an anxiety attack but suddenly today just now I have another one ... I hate getting them and the worst part is I WANT and NEED to talk to someone about it but when I do they don't seem to care or understand that I can't control these feelings or thoughts that go on in my head. Sitting there and not being to explain why it is I am hysterical sends me into more stress. When I get these anxiety attacks I feel like my whole entire world is emotionally and physically crumbling away. I feel as though as I have no purpose at all on this earth, I feel like no one cares or even notices me. I feel like everyone tolerates my existence. I feel like if I were to ever leave no one would care or notice. I feel like I can always be easily replaced. I know this isn't true, but something in my head keeps telling me over and over again no one cares about me. The more I think about it the more I start to believe it is true that absolutely no one on this earth cares about me. During these anxiety attacks all I want is just to know my best friends care and will let me lean on them during the hard times. But even sometimes I feel like they don't care or even notice. I feel like I have almost no one to count on. I feel like at time the only person the one person I can count on is my ex and he's the one that fucked me up emotionally. That's saying something when the one who hurted you the most if the one who is there for you the most. To be honest I don't even know if this made any sense at all. I'm delusional and just need to calm myself some how and get this out of my system instead of breaking down.
