criphd

just so stressed out atm & i dont even need to be !!!! like .... it's fine!!!! im going to go on my interruption, everyone has agreed i just have to do the paperwork !!!! & that seems, in wild news, really straightforward!!! so chill out u idiot !!!!!

have my apr panel tomorrow & trying to not be freaked out about it... especially bc i also have a meeting afterwards to discuss disability / interruption of studies stuff which i am also kinda freaked out abt.... & then im gonna try & go to shul for erev shavuos bc i rly want to but like... Huge Tiring Day so idk !!!

u know what else... i think i need to pair it back + just do the necessities again (including conferences).... i guess one reason why stuff was impacted a lot [especially in autumn] was because i did !! do some of that teaching assistant stuff which took up my energy & time & made me quite stressed etc so thats good to remember. i just have been wanting to be as employable as i can be but i also have to like exist as a i am as a disabled person +++ actually do my phd too so like sometimes that obviously means not doing most stuff