#answerstolife

I did fail…

Things are turnings down.. my heart is feeling down.. my whole life seems to have come to a huge stop… I am stuck, I am literally so stuck this time that I feel failed, I see no hope. This life that I’m living doesn’t feel worthwhile anymore.. I have nothing to give, nothing to gain.. nothing left to even think about… I have always tried to pull myself back from all these cycles of karma, never…

Okay. I don’t know what but something seems to be shifting within me.. I don’t know what things seem to be different.. I don’t know what but I feel something has changed.. I don’t know yet how welcoming this change is gonna be.. But somewhere somehow I seem to be enjoying it.. It might not be doing anyone good, might not even for me but the glimpse that I had is making me stronger.. It…

I am in anguish.. there is pain, there is fear, there is worry.. when you see from the outside, nothing can be seen, nothing can be felt, but if you would take just a look within.. there is a burning fire that is turning all positivity, all hope to ashes.. I don’t wanna feel this. I keep telling me to get away, to run, to inturn burn all these thoughts and despair, but it keeps on coming.. this…

Things are really changing so rapidly. I wonder sometimes did I really ask for it. Or has it been just passed on to me because someone else said no. Questions that never end and answers that you never seem to get. All our lives, we are just running behind new things, new opportunities, new accomplishments; but I wonder so many times is this all really worth the struggle. The changes that are…

My god.. I am feeling so many emotions right now all at once..

My mind is a whirlpool right now.. whirlpool of love, fear, frustration, dreams, failures, joys.. everything that I could feel right now or anyone can feel.. it is coming all at once..

I have such vivid imaginations.. imaginations of hopes, of heart melting joys,of things that would change everything.. that change which I feared, now I aspire..

These dreams, these imaginations, seem so far fetched, so out of hands, so unreal.. yet, they keep coming up from time to time more vivid and more clear..

I don't know what's happening.. what do they mean or do they even mean anything.. is there a change coming for good.. or these are dreams.. that's it.. just a dream..

I really feel that I am on a ride right now.. its all going slow, suddenly I could feel everything moving so fast.. that I am not even able to scream nor realize what really even happened before it is far gone..

My life really is a roller coaster.. and now I need to take control of the ride.. it's time..

It is a big mess.. it is a real big mess..

I am so all over the place right now.

I don’t know what to make sense of and what to deny..

I am scared.. I am bloody scared.. I can literally hear my heart beating loud and clear..

I have a fear.. its bad.. it sucks.. I know I have to get over it.. I have already stretched it for too long.. I have let it go on and on.. making it so strong.. that now its…