Little Chapter c: A lot to learn
Time passed.. seasons changed.. friends moved on.. the meaning of friendship changed..
Life seemed like a chaos.. a chaos of my own emotions.. a chaos of change.. a chaos of my own identity..
Realizations came.. realizations that every friendship has a solid reason behind its base.. nothing is permanent.. all is meant to be broken.. all is meant for one's own good.. everything has a selfish reason..
More realizations.. control is not always in your hand.. you might feel that you are holding the remote but in reality, the control is in someone else's hand.. you might feel that you are aware of your own needs and make your own choices but you wouldn't realize that your choices are hugely influenced by others..
Realizations... you are not you anymore.. you don't have your own identity.. you are made of what others have made you.. you feel what others make you feel.. you have lost awareness of your own self long long time ago.. it is only yet to be realized..
Self esteem, confidence, will power, individuality.. all at stake..
Yeah, the loss is vast and never ending.. but worse is failure over realization of the loss.. nothing can be more cruel than that..
Yes, there is a lot to know.. a lot to learn.. a lot to think about.. and a lot to be aware of..
Don't just let things slip from your fingers.. hold them while you can..
And if you can't, then just stop holding on to it..
