#anote2myself

Trees. My favorite. 💚☀️🔆💫

You love me... You really love me.

I #apologize for all the years I slept on you and for the years l was blind to your #greatness. You've been #magic all along #aNote2Myself https://www.instagram.com/p/BwDEQ3cgX6b/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ccwy9sen6kpm

Multiples of anything, for me, can be too much & daunting (I'm also entitled to change my mind lol 😌). Anywho, I cannot date multiple men... too many energies, feelings, & emotions (yes, men have these 💛👦🏾) at once; all of them WILL be my boyfriend by the end of courting (serious, but joking, but sooo SERIOUS 🙄). Too many things I have to remember, like names, stories about yo mama, etc... I cannot remember all of that from multiple men (ahhh, 🤤🤤). And I don't want them all touching me & I like to focus on just one man. (God bless that man that puts with alllllllllll of this crazy.. ha 🙏🏾). Some women can do alllll of this.... I cannot. Lol. Seriously, do not ALLOW people to talk you into thinking that their way of doing something HAS to be your way. Nope, I like doing one thing at a time. I've learned through my own trial and error (having 3 contracts... I was pizz-aid, but severely anxious when my phone rang and depressed as shit because I couldn't do anything right and had me questioning my skills all the time 😥). I'm okay with where I live (moving around A LOT as a child/teen, kind of halted that wanderlust... I've moved enough for a few generations.. sorry ma, @atlsan 😂😚). It's copastetic here 😏. Don't allow others to convince you that if you aren't constantly moving and shaking that you aren't MOVING and SHAKING. Most times, one thought, one person, one thing is essential. I know it is for me. Peace, loves. 🌱💛🙏🏾 #anote2myself #one #anxiety #anxietyattack #panicattack #ptsd #ptsdawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalbarriers #mentalhealthmonth #mentalhealthawareness #rapesurvivors #sexualassaultsurvivors #blackmentalhealth #blackmentalhealthmatters

As clogged up and boggled down that my mind I can be, I try my best to let my loved ones know that I'm thinking of them and that I'm thinking very highly of them. I do have to remind myself that not everyone will do what I do and that is OKAY (we don't all express & show love the same way... just important that I feel it in whatever you do 👐🏽💚). Saturday at therapy, we were talking about manifesting and one thing that comes with that is speaking life, love, and good stuff unto ourselves and others (when you don't respond to my text, I'm immediately thinking that you don't care about me and that I'm nothing to you.. I know, I'm conditioning my brain to think differently ☺🙆🏽‍♀️). I know I'm going through, but I don't know the battles that they face daily and I hope to treat them the way I want to be treated... I love to give love and I'm learning to receive (another topic for another day 😏), but while I'm on that receiving path, I still want to feed and pour into them (of course keeping enough for myself 🙄)... because most times, it's bigger than me and what I'm doing. They also need that as well. So bruh, I think you're a beautiful, resilient human... and same to you, sis. 💚🙏🏽😚🌱 More life, lovers. #anote2myself #speaklife #speaklove #speakwellness #morelife