#angelogy

Obviously. Still a closet gay whos trying to convince themselves that what they feel is lust and not love. Scared and disgusted of their own feelings. One sided doomed yaoi, religious guilt and severe trauma. Hates themselves. yep yep yep. But also. Doesn't have a good healthy relationship with Jehovah (The big G-). High expectations. Always under pressure. Exhausted and depressed. Always in a bitter and stressed mood. Distant and colder now and tries to avoid the other archangels. Also yes, and the Lucifer angst part ahahah HOW can I EVER FORGET THAT- deeply hates their brother with a passion of a thousand burning suns. Despises whenever anyone compares them to him. Doesn't want to talk about Lucifer because welp, thing is, they still miss them. Still have a silver of hope that they can be redeemed. But Lucifer? Oh he doesn't care. He's gonna stay down and live down. He assumes heaven's given up on him, forgetting him already and never wishing to see him again. Michael, despite being the one to slay lucifer, forced themself to think they hate lucifer, so they don't feel horrible and like shit. Triggered very easily by the mention of the fall. And yep. Still the prince of all heavenlyl hosts who lowkey wishes to abandon heaven and never come back. They never asked to be given this role, so yeah.