#and.

I.

I don't know how I'm going to do this, or when. Probably when I'm out of the house and do it over text, or when I get the chance to talk to her alone, it's.. It's not the worst thing to tell them but.. It's definitely close.

It's. Definitely for the best. As I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.

All of it.

And this is probably the best way to put this, and might alleviate some of their suspicions, if not give a different reason behind the things they're suspecting.

All in all. This is going to be a lot. But it will be manageable. And I'll persevere.

To be honest, I'm scared. Even though it's nothing close to the full truth. There's still.. There's still a chance..

That uhm. I lose everything because of this.

That will hopefully not be the case, as.. There is a reason behind this, that wouldn't be helped (even in theory.) by any of the normal precautionary measures.

But there is a chance, as these people have proven time and time again that they can't be trusted.

But.

This really is a "go through with it and you might regret it" or "die miserably and alone" situation.