I'm honestly so stressed. But I need to bring this up to my mother (and by extension. Everyone else.)
I.
I don't know how I'm going to do this, or when. Probably when I'm out of the house and do it over text, or when I get the chance to talk to her alone, it's.. It's not the worst thing to tell them but.. It's definitely close.
It's. Definitely for the best. As I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.
All of it.
And this is probably the best way to put this, and might alleviate some of their suspicions, if not give a different reason behind the things they're suspecting.
All in all. This is going to be a lot. But it will be manageable. And I'll persevere.
To be honest, I'm scared. Even though it's nothing close to the full truth. There's still.. There's still a chance..
That uhm. I lose everything because of this.
That will hopefully not be the case, as.. There is a reason behind this, that wouldn't be helped (even in theory.) by any of the normal precautionary measures.
But there is a chance, as these people have proven time and time again that they can't be trusted.
But.
This really is a "go through with it and you might regret it" or "die miserably and alone" situation.
So uh. Wish me luck. I guess.












