sorry but you cannot convince me otherwise that logan wouldnāt have an absolute crisis over finding out he has feelings for virgil.
(tbh this is kind of a fic idea that i want to be real, but i canāt write well, so itās kinda long and just describing what would happen.)
like once everything finally clicks, he just tries to reject the feelings, which in turn leads to him spending less time w virgil and being more snippy towards him to distance himself so he doesnāt fall deeper in love, just to be safe. and this is all while in his head heās freaking out over the fact that he does have feelings, and has romantic ones for virgil.
he stops asking virgil to do their normal hang outs, he leaves the room whenever possible when virgil walks in, he sometimes stares at virgil with a look of concentration/thoughtfulness (which just looks like him glaring at virgil) when he needs to be in a room with him for an extended period of time, he makes excuses whenever virgil offers to hang out/do something, and whenever virgil talks to him, he just gives short and blunt answers.
this ofc leads to virgil overthinking and makes him worry that logan just doesnāt enjoy his company anymore, so he also tries to distance himself as well so he doesnāt upset logan anymore than he already thinks he did.
logan obviously Does Not want that, and realizes that heās been kinda shitty to virgil after he realized he misses virgilās company and realizing that itās mainly His Fault that virgil isnāt spending time with him. so bc he misses their little hang outs, he finally asks virgil to do what they normally did and virgilās like ā???? r u sure?? i thought u hated me and were avoiding me???ā
logan goes like āwhat ahaha i donāt hate u and i wasnāt purposefully avoiding you, ive just been busyā (which is technically true, he was busy trying to get rid of his feelings, not avoid virgil) and virgil hesitates before agreeing to continue doing their normal things again, but is noticeably quieter and more reserved bc heās scared that logan might hate him again.
so logan looks online for how to deal with Feelings because heās way too prideful to tell patton or roman that he has feelings for virgil, even tho they probably already know just by the way he looks at virgil. but all he finds online is shit like āstop hanging around that person so muchā and āfind someone else to have a crush onā and logan obviously Does Not Want That bc 1. he wants to keep spending time w virgil, and 2. virgil is literally the only side he enjoys being around, so heās the only side he would realistically fall for.
eventually he would realize that the feelings Are Not going away and all the things he read online have also told him to just confess to get rid of them, but he doesnāt know how to do that. the only way he can think of is just telling it to virgil flat out, but he knows that would likely freak virgil out if something like that came out of no where, so he kinda just swallows his pride and goes to roman bc yk, heās the Romance Guy.
so ofc roman already knows whatās up and is like āok well u donāt think virgil likes u back??ā to which loganās like ā???????? why do u think that?ā and roman just starts listing the shit they do together that is EXCLUSIVELY their activities (generally talking to each other more than the others, joking w eachother/having inside jokes which logan Does Not do w the other sides, literally cuddling/hugging/touching each other even tho they are both generally touch averse, etc)
so ofc loganās just trying to justify his behavior towards virgil, saying that it was to help virgil calm down or was logically beneficial for both parties. and roman asks if he would do that for any of the other sides he hesitates a little and goes āwell, yes, logically i suppose i wouldā but his expression definitely reads ābut i probably wouldnāt enjoy itā
cue roman basically just going āholy shit ur dumb, virgil likes u, just tell himā and says that virgil wouldnāt do stuff like that w logan unless he liked him back. so ofc loganās like āaughhhhhh fiiiiineeeeeā but he doesnāt know how to confess his feelings. he knows that romanās suggestions would be extremely over the top and only make virgil uncomfortable, so he goes to patton bc heās the side that knows virgil the best (besides him ofc, but patton is more feelings-y than he is)
so he basically tells patton āhey i like virgil, what do to tell him?ā and patton is like ā1. i knew it, 2. just uhhhhhh do smth u guys normally do and casually bring it up so virgil doesnāt feel blindsided or smth?? maybe add a little smth extra to make it specialā
after much deliberation, logan finally has the Perfect Plan and he invites virgil to do smth they normally do (doesnāt matter what it is, it can be stargazing, watching a movie, doing a puzzle, etc.) but heās clearly a little more nervous to ask this time.
virgil obviously clocks it bc he is Anxiety and just gets the vibes, but assumes itās just bc logan was having a particularly stressful day and needed to calm down, so ofc he agrees. but the longer they hang out, he sees logan growing more nervous so heās just like ābro what is up w u today, are u ok????ā and being genuinely concerned (which logan is very touched by)
logan just goes āhaha yes i am fine idk what ur talking about!ā and bc heās dogshit at lying, virgil just gets even more concerned. ofc he doesnāt try to force logan to tell him bc he knows that would only stress him out more, but he does the whole āwell if u need someone to talk to, iām always hereā spiel. this ends up w them holding hands at some point bc they both know that the other enjoys that bit of physical contact.
logan, ofc, only gets more nervous bc Holy Shit Weāre Holding Hands until heās finally like, āhey i need to talk to u.ā
heās not rlly thinking rn so he doesnāt consider how his words sound to virgil, so virgilās just internally panicking and thinking āoh my god what did i do this time, why is he angry with me now?ā logan notices ofc and backtracks, saying he isnāt upset or angry with him, which calms virgil down a little, but not entirely, bc loganās using his Serious Voice, even tho itās a little shaky from nerves or wtv.
logan starts rambling about his feelings towards virgil, but heās using a lot of technical terms and way overcomplicating his confession to the point that at the end virgilās just staring confused bc. Thatās A Lot Of Big Words. and he just goes. ā,,,,, can u translate that so normies can understand it plsā
logan grows more nervous, rambling a little more and still kinda overcomplicating his confession, but this time virgil can actually understand it. so just āover the course of (x amount of time) i have come to realize that i treat u differently, and that i may have emotions etc, etc, and i have recently come to the conclusion that i have developed feelings of the romantic kind for uā kinda thing, yk?
virgil kinda stares at him for a while before heās like, āno you donāt.ā bc ofc heās not gonna believe anyone has feelings for a mess like him, especially not someone like logan.
logan is obviously confused. heās done a bunch of research and both roman and patton say his feelings towards virgil are romantic,,,,, heās not good at feelings but heās pretty damn certain about his own towards virgil. he wouldnāt have confess smth like this if he werenāt 100% sure.
so heās like, āyes i do, all my evidence point towards this blah blah blah.ā and when logan finishes, virgilās just kinda stunned before he says smth like āwhy tf would you like me.ā
being super literal, logan begins listing off the dozens of reasons he would realistically fall for him which leads to virgil only getting more flustered (logan realizes he feels this weird tightness in his chest when virgilās flustered so add that to the list). virgil kinda has to tell him to shut up (while being super flustered ofc) and he quietly admits that he liked him back.
logan knew this bc thereās no way the romance side and the feelings side were wrong ab that, but hearing virgil admit it outright makes him way more happy than is explainable.
after virgilās confession, loganās like, āok now what?ā and bc virgil is almost equally as bad at relationships as logan, heās like, āuhhhhh idk. i think we kiss now???????ā
first kiss is obviously clumsy, both worried that if they overdo it, theyāll scare the other person away w just how Intense their feelings are. but once they kiss once, itās smth they canāt really get enough of.
virgil feels a sense of calming yet excited euphoria. itās grounding for him while also being that intoxicating feeling of risk that he normally tries to avoid like the plague. the kiss feels like heās gambling away his previous relationship w logan and somehow winning the jackpot, even if logan was the one to confess his feelings and initiate it.
logan also feels that euphoria and it makes him wonder why it feels that way, bc realistically this should just be like any other form of contact theyāve had in the past, right? (bro is so unromantic at the beginning but he gets better as they date for longer) so he just keeps leaning in for more kisses until they both have to pull away to breathe.
by the time they return to the mind palace, theyāre doing what they normally do whenever they hang out so roman and patton canāt really tell if logan confessed or not. they donāt notice how logan has a subtle triumphant smile and his cheeks are redder than usual. they donāt notice how virgilās lips are slightly more swollen from the kisses he shared w logan and how he refuses to look logan in the eye.
both logan and virgil. kinda agree not to tell them just yet bc they donāt wanna make them getting together a huge deal, and also bc they wanna figure some stuff out (like boundaries and what couples Normally do) beforehand.
nothing much changes between them bc they were already p touchy w eachother before they started dating. only thing thatās changed is the fact that they kiss (in private ofc) and stay in each otherās rooms more often.
to roman and patton, it just looks like theyāre just painfully pining for each other w neither wanting to confess. so after like a month of this bs, roman finally confronts them and is like ādude itās obvious u both like each other, just kiss and start dating already.ā
they both kinda look at roman w this slightly amused expression since theyāve been together for like. a month and a half now, before virgil just goes āfuck itā and kisses logan in front of roman. romanās obviously flabbergasted that virgil actually kissed him and immediately starts yelling for patton (bc ofc theyāve been talking to each other ab logan and virgilās feeling for each one another). cue them both freaking out before logan reveals that theyāve been dating for a while now.
this causes roman and patton to freak out even more, to the point logan and virgil just leave so they donāt have to deal w their questions.
anyways, iāve been working on this draft on and off for like. 2 years now bc iāve been too lazy to finish it until today. also i havenāt posted anything for myself in a bit. gonna try to work on some more art of these two idiots, but lowkey no promises lmaoo