#anakinsstuff

But his actions spoke louder than his words ever could, every single time.

The only difference was this time he had crossed the line.

You sat at home with the now cold dinner in front of you and the candle almost burnt out, so you decided to call Anakin worried something was wrong at the temple.

“Hey hon whats up?” he said casually.

“Hey babe,  I   was just wondering where you were. It's getting pretty late.” you whispered.

“Oh sorry did  I   forget? Padme called, she got arrested in Scipio im on my way to get her out.” he said casually.

Your stomach dropped, He forgot your anniversary.

“Oh, um okay.” you said quietly covering your mouth to cover the sobs.

“ I   should be back in a day or less. Is everything alright? You don't usually call this late.” he said questioning the call.

Clearing your throat you tried your best to sound normal, “No, yeah  I   um  I   just made dinner, it's your favorite but it's okay.” It was not okay.

Suddenly it hit Anakin like a ton of bricks, your anniversary.

“Shit, babe  I‘m so sorry  I will make it up to you as soon as we get back, it's just that Padme needed my help and  I   can’t say no.” he said, he felt like total shit.

“Mhm yeah I‘ll see ya bye Anikin.” you said as swiftly as you could not giving him a chance to reply.

You couldn't, by then the tears were rolling and your sobs were uncontrollable and all you wanted to do was cry.

“ I   lo-” Anakin tried saying before you hung up on him, you’d never gone a day without saying  I   love you.

You always said no matter what you’d always say  I   love you at least once before the end of the day.

Anakin knew better than to let you go to sleep that way so he tried calling again but to no avail you didn't answer.

How could you? You couldn't face him in the state you were in, show him that you were jealous, broken, and destroyed because of his choices.

The pit in his stomach began to grow and he began feeling sick to his stomach. Suddenly he wished he could take it all back and not have been such an idiot.

Send someone else to retrieve the senator.

Anakin settled for a text instead.

Ani:  I  ‘m so sorry babe,  I   promise  I  ‘ll make it up to you,  I   love you.

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Sighing, Anakin threw his phone to the side as his nerves began to build up and he wanted to go back home immediately.

Anakin spent the rest of the mission annoyed and impatient as it felt like Padme and Clovis kept adding things to the list and he was ready to go home.

He still tried texting and calling but now you weren't even opening his messages.

You couldn't, your heart hurt just looking at his name pop up after you made your own choice to leave.

As much as you wanted to believe his words you couldn't, giving it another chance meant giving him another chance to do it again and your heart just couldn't take it anymore.

You thought you could do it, when he asked you to marry him you thought it would finally be Y/n and Anakin.

But it’s inevitable, for him there will always be Padme and she will always come first.

And you’d given up, it all felt too one sided for you to keep fighting, the missed birthdays, family dinners, and now your anniversary.

Marrying him only sealed the deal even more and you just couldn't do it, it felt like you were saying  I   do to marrying Padme.

So you made the choice to leave, packing your things before he came back and leaving a note on the nightstand with your engagement ring. You took one last look at the home you built together and left.

Not having anyone else in Coruscant you went back home to Mandalore where your sister accepted you with open arms.

Satine knew of your issues with Anakin but she only hoped they would improve for your sake, she was sad to see they didn't.

She reminded you it was alright but all you felt was shame,and cowardness by not being able to face him and tell him how you felt face to face.

You couldn’t bring yourself to stay and wait around so that he could talk about what they did or how great she handled her mission.

You couldn't keep up the charade anymore, not when it felt like she had always been his choice.

Since then it had been two days and Anakin had finally landed in Coruscant.

He didn't even wait for the chancellor or Obi-wan to greet him, instantly he went home hoping he could fix this mess he made and hold you in his arms until you were content with him again.

“Baby!  I‘m home!” he yelled as soon as he walked in, silence.

Walking through the house he didn't find you, walking into your bedroom his stomach sank.

Slowly he walked towards your side of the bed and picked up the note.

With shaky hands and his vision beginning to blur he opened it.

Anakin, I  ‘m sorry  I   had to end things this way, truly  I   wish  I   wasn’t at all. But  I   can no longer live my life in Padme's shadow. To continue living this way would have destroyed me and  I   just couldn't bear it any longer. I didn't want to be the person who makes you choose between your first love and me.  I   couldn’t face rejection so  I   made the choice myself.   I   hope you find all the love and happiness you deserve in life, don't forget that okay? We all deserve love and happiness and everything the stars could offer.  I   tried to hold on and hope for a day when things changed. I promise you  I   did but at some point  I   had to let you go and give myself a chance to be someone's first choice.  I  really hope you can forgive me for leaving this way but it's for the best.  Maybe someday  I  ‘ll be able to take my heart back but for now  this will do. Goodbye Anakin. Love, Y/n

Looking back down at the nightstand Anakin saw your ring and that was when he finally broke.

Falling to his knees he held onto the note as if it was you and cried, how could he have let it get this bad?

How did he not see how much he was hurting you.

He felt like the biggest asshole in the world for letting you go on like this, how could have been so blind to your pain.

He was a damn Jedi, the chosen one and he couldn't see he was hurting the person he loved the most in all of the galaxy.

And you took it because you loved him.

He did not deserve your love, had the tables been turned around he would have lost his mind.

Even knowing he wasn't deserving, he was still selfish and he wanted you and only you there was no one else and there’d never be anyone else.

A  life without you wasn’t worth living to Anakin.

He stayed by your bedside for a while, he hadn't realized how much time had passed until Obi-wan walked in.

“Anakin? What's wrong?” Obi-wan asked, but after looking around the room he wished he hadn't.

“ I  ‘m the biggest idiot in the world, Obi-wan. That's what's wrong.” he said as he pulled down your pillow to cuddle it.

Your scent filled his heart for a split second before he remembered this and the note was all he had left.

“Well when you didn’t meet me at the Temple  I   knew something was wrong but  I   didn't know to what extent.” he said sitting on the bed.

“Can you ask Satine if she's there?  I   would but  I   doubt she’d answer.” Anakin mumbled.

Obi-wan didn't answer him, instead he pulled out his phone and began dialing.

“Satine, how are you? Oh-well yes actually.  I   agree, thank you Satine. Take care.” was all Anakin heard   from his side.

“Get up, Anakin, we are going to fix this. I assure you it’ll be alright.” Obi-wan said, patting his shoulder.

“She wants to see me?”Anakin asked, perking up with the slightest hope.

“Well, Satine didn't exactly say that but she also did not say we couldn’t go?” Obi-wan said, questioning his own words.

“Oh okay.” Anakin said, but still he got up, finally.

“We’re not going there to break it off even more, you're going there to fix this and we won’t leave until you do Anakin.” Obi-wan said trying his best to encourage his dear friend.

“Oh,  I   can assure you of that Obi-wan,  I   won’t leave unless she’s by my side again.” Anakin said determined to get you back.

Putting your ring in his pocket he held onto it as they both walked to Obi-wan's ship.

“What about the council?” Anakin asked, he was finally made a master but he was still pretty rebellious when it came to attendance.

“We are on a recon mission as far as they know, we should be back in a week's time.” Obi-wan said, of course he had it covered, he's Obi-wan.

With that, they took off and Anakin held on to all the hope he had in fixing his mistake.

In seventeen hours he'd give it his best to get you back.

You had managed to stop constantly crying at the thought of Anakin.

You even started coming out of your room to eat at the table with Satine, she hasn’t pressured you to come out so she’s happy you have on your own.

It was almost time for dinner so you decided to get some fresh air before they called for you.

Standing on the balcony you admired the scenery, it was a sunny day the warmth felt amazing for once.

“It’s a beautiful day.”

You froze, Satine could have at least given you a warning.

“It is.” was all your mind could scramble for.

You didnt turn around, the only thing bringing you enough peace right now was the view before you, the view behind you would destroy you.

Especially if you saw how red and puffy his eyes were.

“Can we talk?” he asked quietly, if he was honest he didn't know where to begin, or if anything of what he was about to say was going to make sense at all.

“We already are.”

“ I   deserve that, Y/n  I‘m sorry for all of it, for being an idiot and never realizing how much  I   was hurting you.  I  ‘m the biggest idiot in the entire galaxy and  I   don't deserve you but the  truth is you are the happiness and the love of my life and  I   don't see my life continuing without you.” he said slowly inching his way to you, quietly you turned your head and looked over your shoulder.

“ I   told you  I   won't let myself come second anymore.” you had to stand your ground, “And  I   won’t make you choose between Padme and  I  ,  I don’t want you to look at me with regret because you made the wrong choice.” you said turning your head back.

Finally reaching you he grabbed you by the waist but your eyes stayed on his chest, “Baby there was never a choice to make, you were always first, you were always my love, my only love.” he said as a matter of fact.

“Anakin don’t.” you whispered quietly, god how you missed being in his arms.

“No listen to me please, and then you can decide if you really want me to leave.” he said and when you didnt fight him he took it as a sign to keep going.

“Padme broke up with me because she saw the way  I   looked at you, she knew that what  I   felt for you  I   could never feel for anyone else. The reason why  I   helped her so much is because  I   felt guilty for dragging her along before she made me realize that you were my real love.” he said calmly.

You still hadn't met his eyes.

“You still forgot our anniversary, my birthdays, and the family dinners Anikin, what’s your explanation for those.” you said dryly, “How can  I   go back with the constant thought of you possibly leaving me at another dinner table alone?  I   can’t put myself through that again.” you said grabbing his arms to get out of his grip.

You wanted out of this conversation.

Anakin felt himself begin to panic, “No please wait just listen to me, okay?” his voice broke at the end and you couldn't move looking anywhere but him you looked at the birds laying happily in their nest.

Lucky them.

“ I   know  I ‘m not the best thing out there and  I   know  I‘ve forgotten big moments for us in the heat of the moment because  I ‘m so impulsive and-and sometimes it’s a blessing but most times its a curse  I   mean ask Obi-wan it's a surprise  I   actually made to the rank of Master but then again  I   have saved him multiple times and he knows that but that's besides the point because all  I   know is that  I   love you and deciding to be with you and marry you and be yours is the one thing   I   didn't act impulsive on and that's because  I   wanted it all to be perfect because you deserve that and so much more and  I   know  I  ‘m not much but  I   want to be that for you.” he was rambling, more like word vomit and he wasn’t done.

By this point you had already made up your mind that you wanted him for the rest of your life, especially if he rambled like this about you.

And of course Obi-wan.

He hadn’t realized that you were now looking at him in the midst of all his rambling so you tried to hide your smile as he continued.

“ I   want to be the guy who is lucky enough to wake up next to you and buy you flowers and maybe even have children with if you ever wanted to not that  I‘d ever force you to or anything but  I‘d do anything for you, you just have to say the words Y/n and  I‘m your guy  I‘d do it all just to be loved by you.  I   can't say that  I   won't make mistakes because considering my record it's obvious that  I  ‘m full of those but for you I want to work on it and  I   will for the rest of my life if you’ll still have me.   I‘ll start taking after Obi-wan if you want me to just say the words Y/n and  I‘ll do it.” he went on and by now you had to stop him it was getting too adorable.

“Anakin stop. You’re an idiot,” you said, making him drop his head, “but you're my idiot and  I   want you for you as forgetful as you are, just don't forget to show up to our wedding because then  I   will actually leave.” you said hugging him with your arms wrapped around his waist.

“Wait, so you still wanna marry me?” he said, stunned.

“Yes, now where is my ring groom?” you said pulling away.

Both sniffling and chuckling, Anakin pulled out your ring and slipped it back on its rightful place.

“Thank you.” he said, holding you tightly.

“Don't thank me, thank that beautifully practiced speech you prepared, and the honorable mention of Obi-wan? 10 points.” you said jokingly.

“God  I   love you so much.” he said, leaning and kissing you slowly.

“ I   love you too, Ani.” you said as you went back for another kiss. You missed your lover boy, you were putting your heart in his hands again, you were scared yes but there was no other place in the galaxy for you.

As the years went on you married Anakin and he made each day more amazing than the one before never once forgetting a special occasion.

This time around you were actually able to become friends with Padme and even came around to double dates in Naboo.

Anakin vowed to be a better man for you and you reminded him everyday that he was that and so much more.