#almostlover

Before the year ends, I just want to thank you for all the good memories you gave me. For all those kisses, for all those almost and for all the pretty lies. I still think of when we first met, I never thought you’d mean this much to me. I guess we were always meant to be, we were meant to be something and that something was for us to be nothing. You’ll always be my almost. I probably am not as important to you as you were for me, but your presence shaped me. You motivated and gave me a drive no one else could. You came into my life to give it purpose and sparkle but you weren’t destined to stay. You gave me great memories, you filled my heart with joy. You did for me what some guys never bothered to do, you were so respectful, kind and gentle at first. You made a walk in the park interesting. You made watching movies special, even when you talked every bit of it. Your interest in everything made me fall for you even more. I must admit at first I wasn’t a fan of you, of you talking during movies but then it just all made sense. You made music sound better, it’s never a dull moment with you. I can’t believe how I could spend so many hours with you and not get bored, annoyed or drained. I could never have enough of you. I know you mentioned how I hardly ever spoke but I enjoyed listening to you, you’re smart and interesting. For years now, I tried to understand where I went wrong, if I said too much or too little, if I was too mean or too nice but I finally realized we just aren’t meant to be. This last time around I must admit I wasn’t interested in you emotionally it just happened, but even being your friend would’ve been fine for me just having you around was good enough. I just know that this relationship will never work so I was okay with being your friend. I saw how hung up you were on her and I just wanted to help I wanted for you to be okay. Even though I always look at the great things you did, no one has hurt me the way you did. And even then when you said you no longer wanted to live I kept praying and praying until you picked up, I kept asking God to keep you around. I told him how special you were and for him to show you how valuable and important you are. I know you don’t really believe in God but I know that’s why you’re here today. That day I wanted to run to you, I wanted to grab my keys and check if you were okay. You’ve hurt me so much, you’ve played with my feelings, spoken down on me and I still wish and hope you live the best and most fulfilling life. I can’t believe how much I allowed you to step over me, how I allowed you to play and manipulate me. How even when I thought you’d be the one to lose because I was aware of what you were doing, I was always the one left hurt. When you came back this time I just wanted to keep you around to make sure you were okay but you changed everything. Thank you for the memories you gave me these last 3 years and 11 months. I am forever changed by you. It’s time to say goodbye to that though. I’m leaving you here, I will no longer allow you to break me. Te quiero muchísimo amor ❤️ Goodbye bb💖