#alas...........

“ i don’t think i’d ever had one worth calling a ‘wake up call’ until just a bit ago. i would guess that i learned it later than most, what given our history and all, but i heard of fawna’s engagement and i found myself in a bar just thinking about how lucky that man is, ” he reminisced, conjuring up a sad image of him sulking. his ego wasn’t bruised, of course, but he -- for the first time -- had doubts about himself. “ i know he must think it even more so than myself, i know he must love her even more so than i was ever even able to. but i just remember thinking: ‘i ruined something good, and for what reason? because i was bored?’ i truly wish i could say the deaths were my first ‘wake up call,’ but... ” they just didn’t affect him as much.

the wealth of pictures taken at every good angle and worn by a real person + a realistic sounding description (like 'i commissioned an etsy shop to embroider the back of this jacket so it's one of a kind, it's in great quality because I only used it for a few photoshoots!) got me