psychosexual perversion & paraphilia
you detest and fear something so badly, you begin to ache for it to a disgusting degree…
you fantasize about it. think about it every night before you go to sleep. wether it’s to pleasure or punish yourself is unknown. you don’t want to be hurt but that’s exactly why you want it.
the more forbidden and taboo it is, the likelier it is to taint you, the more you want it. repulsed yet obsessed. uncomfortable comfort. unadulterated desire.














