#afterthoughts

I'm the gasoline,

Words: Ben Forrester I’m back in Manchester for the second Wednesday in a row checking out more underground rock shows. This week I’m mainly here to see Halifax’s finest Wot Gorilla? as they play main support on a short run of UK dates for Dublin’s premiere math rock duo, Bicurious. I’ve followed Wot Gorilla? since my Uni days back in 2009 and they have always remained one of the most mind…

I feel like the meaning of it, if there was one... Maybe I'm struggling to remain myself? Maybe I'm holding on to myself? Am I dealing with some kind of self acceptance? I'm really not sure.

My daughter texted me yesterday and said she wanted to speak with me. She calls me and tells me my sister wants to take her to a concert about 2 hours from me, then drop my daughter off for a few weeks with me. I don't have a problem with that, I just made the suggestion to bring some ear plugs and have my sister text/call me so we can iron out the details.

This girl tells me, that she doesn't wanna talk to me. Doesn't know why, me and my wife look at each other in confusion. I tell her this is news to me because last I saw her was when she stayed at my old place for a day or so. That was about 2.5 years ago...

The only other time we interacted was over text, one time about her now ex-husband breaking her wrist. I was concerned and told her I'm not sure how serious she is being but if that did happen, you two really need to work it out. I feel like that was as much of an opening as anything. She could have set the record straight or told me literally anything about it. All she replied with was because of his fragile masculinity. I'm not sure how I can help if that's all you are willing to give me?

The second time was when I invited her to our wedding, she didn't want to go because my other sister, her twin, was going. They had some beef going on that I really don't even care about. She asked me if my other sister was coming, I said I had invited her. So she never showed up. What am I supposed to do? Have two separate weddings?

I'm at a loss, because had I interacted with her more, it would just lead her to get mad at me. I know this because she gets mad at my parents and believes they are trying to meddle in her life. But since I didn't, she's mad also. I don't understand her?