#adhd work

Like I have kids AND ADHD, I have loads of energy really early in the morning, which I use to help them get ready for school with everything they need and on time.

And then I try to work while the house is empty and quiet, and yknow I might get a couple of hours done, before I take a break, look at my phone, get back to it. Then it's lunch, and that's when I really switch off. I can get a bit done as part of procrastinating lunch because I can't decide what to eat.

Then I eat a bowl of cereal, watch some TV, exercise self control and stop watching TV, open up my work again and ...

And then suddenly it's time to pick the kids up and I do that from 3-4.

Relief from the mind numbing guilt of sitting at my desk working/not working.

Then cram in another hour of hopelessly staring at my screen in the hopes that something will come out.

And then it's time to cook, time to clean up after dinner, time to put the small one to bed, time to fold laundry, water the plants, feed the cat, then I have about an hour to spend time with my big one who is growing too fast and then a second bedtime in which I am less and less involved.

After that, my partner and I might get a chance to talk for half an hour before we both fall asleep on the sofa.

So no, I'm using all the spoons I have to keep my family functional and any left over can go to work. I hit my deadlines, I attend meetings, but the vast majority of the time

I'm just banging my head against an illuminated screen.

1. I get distracted easily by outside stimulation (nosies, lights, people and smells) things like-oh that cat is really cute… wait what was I doing again...? When I gets distracted and It takes an few minutes for me to remember what I’m doing in the first place. Let me reload my computer brain again. Ooh now I remember. Time to focus.

2. When I begin a task and it’s too much detailed i can’t remember anything. I hear you, I see you and I have repeated things you said to me but my short time memory are really bad. If someone talks to me between a to c I have most surely forget everything I need to get done. It sometimes takes me a few rounds to bring everything i need to do a cake. “Damn I forgot the eggs. I will be right back.” 5minutes later. “Still not enough eggs?” “Sighs. It’s time for an another trip. Be right back boss.” That why I write down what I need to do in small notes and how I’m going to do this IN PICTURES! Because when I’m hungry/tired/stressed I need very easy clear instructions that in form of visual.

3. I’m an organised mess. I like having every necessary tool on the table before preforming so I don’t have to worry about getting it later or forget that it exists in the room. But! BUT! I will always try clean up after myself and put everything back where they should be. ALWAYS!

4. I can be really hyper focused of things that I really finds interesting or passionate about. That means I will ignore you or get frightened very easily when I’m in the zone. But that doesn’t mean i am being rude or that i don’t like you. I’m really into this tasks that everything just disappears around me including people and especially time.

5. The flipping side is that the things I find difficult or boring are things I can’t seams to find motivation or energy to start. No matter how much I try. It feels like I am walking on shattered glass and it painfully boring. The task are very under stimulating and I only want to get it out of the way and it will take very much time.

6. If you want me to work my best I need some kind of freedom to find a way that works for me. I have try one fit all it doesn’t work for me most of the times. I have found that Effective and Fast doesn’t mix. If you you want fast you get messy. If you want effective you can’t get fast. But you can help me priorities and organised task or give me an to do list. So I can work independently.

7. Internal clock, understanding measurement as in distant/weight that doesn’t exist in my brain naturally. That’s why I need tools as clocks and timer to do my job properly. If I don’t see an physical clock on the wall where I work. I don’t know if im too slow and running out of time. I can’t planning ahead of myself. The future is now and sure I can get the job done but if I don’t know what to do I will do poorly with my work.

8. My mood changes very easily based on my basic needs, environment and people I’m with. Sometimes I just feel deeply about things. Super happy. Super sad. Super angry. Super tired. Super hungry. Super in love. Super hate. Not everyone can handle my extreme emotional roller coaster ride.

9. I can come out as cold hearted to some people. But I don’t like passive aggressive and indirect talking (irony). Get to the point even if it hurts a little. I will appreciate you being honest then you being indirect about things. I respect honesty.

Any topics gets sorted in this category fast by me.

Loves it = we can’t talk about it enough :D

Curious of it = takes all my time and energy.

OK with it = I don’t have any option of it but it’s an nice way to pass the time with.

It’s boring = You lost me or I actively avoid it.

Hates it = Can’t stand it. Don’t want to talk about it Period.

I hate putting on an show for anyone and act like everyone else because I am very truthful with my feelings/thoughts. I talk without filtering. People also say I don’t have an poker face. Which is also why I don’t try hide my true feelings. For good and bad sometimes.

10. When I don’t know what I’m doing I get bored, nervous and stress myself out. BUT When I get too much going on I get paralysed and can’t handle stress easily.

Info: I work retail. I have adhd.

Customer: good, can I have...

Me forgetting I asked how their day was already: yeah I can get that, hows your day.

Customer:good???