You know what sucks?
I was in a relationship with a person that I loved, cared for and after, and always provided emotional support to. Always and without exception. Because they were worth it to me.
But that concept was a luxury when it came to me. At some point I became a burden, so much so that in the end, picking me up from the hospital was time negotiated around his weekly brunch.
nothing hurts worse than when someone you have loved abandons you like you’re not worth the effort one day. Your struggle, your pain? I can’t stand to be around it.
And l just.. leaves.
I really doubt permenance now
I was always those things. We were together three years. Then boom. I’m lazy, a burden, a chore.
All of this hurts but I’m trying to move past it. I won’t let it add onto the weight that’s already on my shoulders. I’ll burn it all away.
This is just venting I guess
