Not muched was missed. D&D happened yesterday, that takes up all day.
Today there was no D&D, the session was called off. 2 members who were important to decisions being made were unable to show up, thus, called off session.
i’ve been tired all day, left side feeling weak, headachy. Duckie was out, she colored a picture, learned how to count properly. She’s slowly coming around, one day she’ll mesh with the rest of us.
Duckie is 4 years old. She shattered off when i had a double ear infection. Mother wasn’t taking good care of me (not that she ever did) and Daddy was at work, my ears hurt so so badly and i just wanted it to stop, so i attempted to get medicine for myself. Unfortunately the bottle broke, spilling the medicine everywhere, earning myself the wrath of Mother who bashed me in the back of the head, smacking it forward into the counter in front of me. Thus, Duckie.Â
i have learned, remembered?, so many things about my early years from this little one.
Bleach scrubbing the bathroom, barehanded, no proper ventilation. Pine-sol scrubbing the kitchen and entryway floors, barehanded, sure it was 50/50 water/pine-sol but that’s still improper mixing and barehanded is terrible. Amongst many many more things.
But Duckie is learning. Reading, letters, counting, numbers, no hit no yell, safety, coloring, it’s ok to ask for things but you don’t have to ask for the things you need (i.e. going to the bathroom). Music. Art. Watching Starcraft 2 and Dota 2 with Sir. Learning of the relationship between myself and Sir, but learning she does not and will not be a part of that kind of relationship with Him. So many things - and she’s sponging it up.
i was a smart child. i lost a lot of that growing up, and even more of that to the MS.
Going through a pseudo-exacerbation and also period skip-month shit is draining, but i just recently had two rounds of Acthar, so that’s something and i will rebound back up. Sir was recently diagnosed Type2 Diabetes, so changes in diet have been wonky, but it’s a thing.
Back to today - had rice & beans for supper, still kinda hungry but we’re low on food and have no money right now. Food stamps come in on Saturday so we’ll be able to get more food then.Â
 More books:
A Long, Long Sleep by Anna Sheehan - 6/10, did some skimming to get to the better parts, but decent enough.
Partials by Dan Wells
Fragments by Dan Wells
Ruins by Dan Wells
The Partials series is...well, it’s okay. It flutters between 7/10 and 4/10. There’s a lot of walking, trudging, medical jargon, tech jargon, faux-stress, and a lot of problems that would be solved extraordinarily easy if the parties would just stop, take a break, and actively talk to each other. But that would make for poor storytelling. i’m still making my way - skimming my way, really - through Ruins, but i’m almost done, and really only finishing it to know how it ends. See who lives, who dies, and what the final outcome is. (In my honest opinion? It would probably be for the best if everyone died and the world started over.)
