#act 25

(italicised are ritsu’s thoughts)

R: Woah... R: That’s R: One-sided R: ....... R: and (t/n I can’t translate this bit very well, it’s really vague)

R: .....Ah R: Senpai R: Wait! R: Please wait!

R: Saga-senpai! R: ...ha..ha... R: ...... R: It was a dream... R: I don’t know who said it, but

R: Hated things and painful things, will be solved by time. R: If so, when will that be? R: How many years, how many months, how many days? R: Which minute and which second will it be before I forget? R: Please, tell me.

Floating, falling, and piling up, The memory of my past love refuses to let me go——

Teacher: Don’t forget to hand in your report the day after tomorrow! Student A: Ah, sorry.

Student B: Here. Student A: Woah— Student B: Hey, someone helped you to pick up your things, and you don’t even thank them? R: ......Thanks. Student B: I say, I’ve noticed this before, but why do you never speak? Student B: After you came here, I’ve virtually never heard you talk before. Student A: Can it be that you have a (cant make out) excuse? You don’t even greet others, it’s kind of rude. Student B: Are Japanese people all like this? R: ...... R: ...Annoying..

Student B: Hah? N: Over here! * Student B: Nao, you’re his roommate right? Do something about it! N: Well—it might be because this guy is really shy. N: Hey, Onodera! N: Hey— Student B: Honestly, whether or not he talks doesn’t really matter, but no matter how you try to talk to him, he ignores you, and that isn’t very nice. Student B: Try to talk to him, Nao.

Student B: Everyone calls him a ghost. (Message from An-chan: How are you, Ricchan? I’m still doing fine as ever— It’s raining a lot over here, which is annoying. How is England?) (Message to An-chan: It’s nothing special, thanks for asking.) N: Ah, you’re here. N: Oi, Onodera—

N: Ah, that looks really good. N: Can I have one? R: ....... N: Ah——um, that’s a no, right? Sorry... N: Hey—— N: Onodera-kun. N: I know that interpersonal relationships can be troublesome. N: But it’s at least an all-inclusive school here, right? N: It’s not like you’re in Japan, where words matter a lot, but I think that at least you can achieve the bare minimum of conversation, right?

N: If it’s due to the change of environment and you can’t fit in, we’re both Japanese, and roommates anyway. You can come find me to talk. N: Ah, I’m Kiyomiya Nao, remember? N: Those guys don’t mean to (cant make out) say that kind of things either. N: They just want to understand your situation, that’s all. R: I’m not interested. R: I know that I’m being called a ghost.

R: I thought I was still in the classroom, apparently not. R: I don’t want to have any connections with others. R: Do Japanese spirits have feet? There are people who say this. R: ...How boring. R: It’s not like there’s anything I’m uncomfortable with. R: And it’s not like I can’t fit in. R: It’s just that I’m exhausted. R: People R: Have become intimidating to me again.

R: I didn’t have any plans, only naively exposing all of my feelings, but being completely rejected by the other. R: No, it was also that I’d believed I wasn’t good enough. R: ...Ah. R: Senpai used to read this book often. R: If it’s so easy to be hurt, R: I’d rather not have any connections with others.

R: After all, I came here for that reason. N: Ahh, crap. N: I forgot to bring my science textbook. Onodera, could you let me borrow it? N: Ah, and lend me your notes too. R: ! R: Wait... N: Woah, your handwriting is really nice—— R: Slow down, I never said you could borrow them... N: Ah, never mind, never mind. Teacher: Mr Kiyomiya, please remember to bring your books. N: Sorry, I’ll be more careful next time—

N: Onodera— let’s eat together! N: Onodera— sorry, but could you lend me your notes today as well? N: Onodera— A senpai gave me some movie tickets, lets go together! Student C: Nao, you’ve been spending a lot of time with the ghost.  N: Eh? What? Are you jealous? N: Also, this guy’s name is Onodera Ritsu—  N: After the movie, I could bring you out for a stroll? N: Since you’ve come here, you haven’t been out much, have you? N: I knew it. Look, even though this is from my mom, take the camera, R: Sorry. I’m not in the mood to go outside.

*click* N: Ah, sorry. I couldn’t help it. R: Don’t take pictures of me! N: That was close! N: I did say sorry... N: ....... R: What is with this guy? R: Is this what annoyance feels like? R: Anyway, it’s kind of like someone’s said that to me before.

R: ...No. I’d already decided not to think about the past again. R: ......Why would there be a home in a place like this? R: It must be because I can see this tree every day, which is why... R: Forget it. R: I really want to forget. R: How long will I have to wait?

R: I dreamed about the same thing today. N: Onodera! R: ...... N: Hey, are you alright? You were groaning painfully just now.

N: Here, have some water. R: I’m fine. I don’t need it. N: You’re definitely not fine. Have a drink. R: I’ve already said I don't need it! N: ...... N: I — say, N: Can you please stop doing this? N: It’s very childish, don’t you think it’s embarrassing? I think it is. R: Shut up... It has nothing to do with you. N: Ah, is it?

N: Who’s “Saga-senpai”? R: ...... N: Every time you groan during a nightmare, you always call their name. R: ...Eh? Always...? N: Yes. N: If you have any troubles, just say it. N: I’m a third party, so it should be easier to tell me.

N: What did that guy do to you? N: Eh!? Wait! N: Oi! N: Hey, this is isn’t good! N: I told you to wait!

N: If the dorm manager finds out, we’re going to be in trouble! R: Let go of me! N: We need to go back! R: I don’t want to, get lost! N: Ah — really! N: You’re such a troublesome fellow, R: You’re too noisy, leave me alone! R: I didn’t ask anyone to listen and you’re annoying and harassing me! 

N: ...Ah, sorry. N: I didn’t mean to- N: ——You bastard——

N: Someone actually tried to care about you, but which side is annoying? R: I didn’t even ask you to care about me, don’t push over here! R: All you’re doing is pretending to be the good person. N: Hah!? N: The one who ruined it was you! N: If you didn’t want to have any connections with others, N: you should have just stayed at home! R: You! What do you know about me! R: It hurts! N: So I’m saying that’s all bullshit! R: Aaah!

N: You’ve never fought before, have you? N: You’re super weak. R: Shut up! R: Why do you care? R: You couldn’t possibly know how I feel. R: You don’t know anything, how could you understand?

N: ...... N: Well, just because we’re both living overseas and Japanese, and we’re roommates too, how do I say? N: Looking at you, (cant make out), like you’re about to die, I can’t just leave you here. R: ...... R: No one even asked that of you. N: Really, just change the place. N: I had a little brother, once. N: But when I was 12, he died of a traffic accident.

N: Before leaving home, I had even quarreled with him. N: We never managed to make up before he left. N: I felt as if he had said something to me, but I was too lazy to hear it because it was troublesome. N: Because it’s the same feeling. N: Now I still regret not listening to whatever that was. N: When I looked at you, I remembered those things.

R: ......That has nothing to do with me. N: So I’m saying, there’s nothing you can’t talk about! N: Because you are going through it yourself, let me help you too. N: No matter what you think, even if the dorm manager finds out, until I hear the reasons, I will accompany you. R: ......How will that matter...? N: It’s a reason to meddle in your affairs. N: There, you’ve asked me why R: ~~~~~~~ N: So? N: Who’s “Saga-senpai”?

R: ......Do I say that name very often? N: Yes, I’ve heard it a lot. N: It’s become very annoying. N: Were you bullied? R: ......No. N: Was he a senpai in the same school? R: ...... N: ——Well, you don’t have to say it. N: If you want to say, I’ll listen at any time. N: If you know that kind of guy is around, R: ...... R: ...... R: ......Only for a little while... R: ......Really, only for a while...dated...

N: Eh? Are you talking about a girlfriend? R: ......No. N: Eh? N: En......um? N: You don’t mean, a boyfriend? R: ...... N: Really? R: ...... N: Ah, no, if it’s in a school like this, it’s not rare. R: ......But it was all single-sided anyway. R: We probably never even dated in the end. N: Ah— and after that? R: ......That’s all. N: Huh?

N: Eh? What? So it’s just unrequited love? N: What are you, a girl? R: Shut up! I know that too! N: ......Ah...... N: No, you’re right. I’m sorry. N: Did that senpai have a first name? N: “Saga”...Is it the two words in Kyoto’s “Saga”? R: ......Yeah. R: ......”Saga Masamune” N: Eh— it’s like a warrior’s name. N: So it’s like that, huh—

N: Even though I don’t understand the details, N: But, you’re the one who liked him first? R: ...... N: Ah—then there’s no other way. N: Don’t they always say the one who loves first will lose? R: ...... N: When did you start liking him? R: ......Around the end of March, in spring. R: ...I remember vividly that the cherry blossoms were blooming. N: Ah—so,  N: Something like now?

N: Eh? Eh?? N: Wait, wait, hey, don’t cry, it’s like I’m the one who caused it! R: ...... R: ...I N: Eh? R: Because I’d really R: I’d wanted to forget him as quickly as I could R: Really R: I honestly wanted to forget him R: But even then R: I’d loved him from my heart R: He’s even appearing in my dreams

R: I don’t know what I should do anymore. N: ...... N: Really...... N: ......you N: you really loved him, didn’t you?

R: All I should have done was to like him. R: But it’s so painful. N: So, can’t you just stop dreaming about him? N: Humans, even with the things right in front of them, need the brain to identify the item. N: So you could try to forget him, and you wouldn’t see him in your dreams again. N: You don’t have any need to dream about him anyway. R: How much longer do I have to wait?

R: How many years, how many months, how many days? R: How many hours, how many minutes, how many seconds, before I’m able to forget? R: Faster R: All I want is to quickly forget. R: All I want is for it to become a joke. R: Please, cherry blossoms, R: I beg you to hide that person from my side.

R: ...? Huh? R: What? R: Eh? Was it a dream? R: If so, where is this?

R: !? R: Ehhh? R: Right, right, I was dragged in by Takano-san. R: I-I’ve gotta get back quickly! R: Why is it so heavy? R: Uwah!

R: Is this on purpose!? Is he awake!? R: S-slowly, Takano-san. R: It’s very heavy, so please get off. R: T-that! R: At least let me get into my underwear... R: Takano-san... R: .......... R: It’s been a long time since I’ve dreamed about the past... R: Is it because I’ve met Nao recently...?

R: Anyway...I’d always thought we’d never see each other again. R: This world is too small... R: After that, I’d worked hard and eventually forgot about him. R: I’d already forgotten, R: But what is this, this scenario? R: Even then... R: ......Right. R: The cherry blossom tree in the school, standing beautifully, I’d like for Takano-san to see it one day.

R: But with this job, I don’t know if I’ll be able to travel overseas. R: In the end, I couldn’t forget, could I? R: We met once more again, R: and now, in his arms

*I couldn’t really translate this bit well, if anyone else could help, drop me a message or an ask!