#a.d.d.

I'm trying to take a break from tumblr.

Despite that I managed to go one day without using the app, I relapsed today.

My addiction is mostly using my phone to make digital art or scroll around the internet to forget that I have no real life.

I uninstall the app yesterday morning, I get 2 anonymous calls. My mom blames me for having contact from online strangers despite that I've only been scammed once and I never went back to talking to scammers at all.

It's a fucking déjà vu all over again.

My mom will perpetually have the notion that I'm an idiot who'll crawl back to getting scammed again. I'm self-aware enough to know that I'll suffer from ADD.

There's the off chance that I won't be paying attention due to the following:

if it's about the same jarring conflict (the same problems, the same blah blah blah.)

my mind won't register instructions that I'm unfamiliar with

my mind will go elsewhere if someone is talking about something I don't care about or if it doesn't concern me.

She'll blames my lack of concentration because I'm using the phone. I'll always suffer from ADD even if the phone doesn't exist.

It's bad enough that I can barely concentrate on a normal capacity.

I drew this yesterday because I was inspired.

My art is evil, so what? I draw what makes me happy. I'll die young anyway and I can't change what I am or who I am so I'm done venting...