I really dont know if this counts as NSFW? I dont know if this makes me a NSFW account either so I deeply apologize if it does but none of what I want is NSFW anyway. When I talk about this its not meant to be sexual.
Anyway: venting below. Mentions of mental health etc. struggles with agere. Being an adult. Believing I dont to agere because im too old
I read alot of "forced" agre type content, but I never read any that has explicit sexual content bc that doesnt interest me at all.
What I want is to be forced into little space? I guess? Well no not forced in a cruel or mean way. I want someone to grab all my little stuff and make me sit down and colour in a children's book page- to make a comment if its "too adult." To make sure I go out of the lines and then praise me for how good It is "Ill put it on the fridge" type thing. Like being an adult is something to be scolded for, but Im praised for acting younger.
I feel like Ive spent so long ashamed and disgusted at my Age regression that the only way for me to truly think someone wants me to age regress is for my big/caregiver/whatever to just go
"Youre going to regress. You clearly need it."
"Youre giving me attitude and I wont stand for it, kid. Go sit down on the floor and wait for me to handle you." Before giving me little toys or a bottle or something ykno?
Being a man, being older (24) and being someone who was a caregiver for their mother, someone who's been parentified their entire life (if that's the right wording. My mother was BPD and I was her mental health support. I used to sleep on the floor of her bedroom to ensure she didn't run away at night. (I was in grade 9) i think the concept of age regressing has become foreign to me.
I feel so gross and ashamed and like I want to cry at the thought of going into lil space or age regression or what not (I dont know what people call it anymore but the nonsexual one. It used to be called little space when I was younger, now I believe it's called Age regression.)
Even going into it on my own I tend to just cringe and embarrass myself, even though no one's even around. I end up just sitting there colouring in kids books, completely adult. With tears in my eyes.
So I dont know what that counts as anymore. Is that ok to talk about with the community? Can I talk about that among the AgeRe community, are there other people with the same feelings as I? The desire to have someone decide I will age regress, even to the point of ignoring my autonomy (but not in a cruel way) Its like a parent, realising their kid has to settle down, so they'll make them settle down. I want my adult self to be treated like I'm just having a temper tantrum and need to be babied. Man. I miss age regressing.