1 Drip
Sinking
Down years of
Turmoil.
Grief
Unmastered
In love
In life
In you.
Press the button in
Bleed a little longer
Linger over the trembling
Girl -
Who sacrificed
Everything
At your expense.
You still claim to have felt superior?
Say that again
To the girl
drunk and sobbing
Pooled on the bathroom tiles.
The way you āareā
Does not correspond with what you
Did.
Darkness
Clouded behind serene features -
Whispers so sweetly iridescent.
I hear you,
Truly.
Though you still ignore
This -
The years of mistrust
Built on trials of
Misguided lines
Rolling through sand castles.
I was that girl
Soul-wrenched
Crumbled along bathroom tiles.
I waited
One.
Two.
Three.
Same story over
And over again -
An endless reel of bullshit.
I tasted poison on your lips
As sweet as candied apples.
I was pulled in by the warmth
And yet
That girl sobbed
Harder then she had -
From her insecurities being
Throat-punched back at her.
So desperate to rekindle
I know this to be the case-
And I donāt hate you
Just still reveling in heart-break.
You tossed me aside
Threw me away
And maybe you were drowning yourself
But when I left my hand
For you to hold and grab
You swatted it away
Said Iāll take anotherās.
Take another second
Of solar living.
The moon caressing
Thin-lined promises -
I stayed.
For far too long.
Trembling in want
That I would be it, the one.
I so dearly wanted to love
And to be loved by you
But another soulless
Black pit
Of partner after partner.
No commitment
No accountability
Just you.
Thatās just it.
I couldnāt take another hit
And red-razored grains
Sheer anger
Sheer hate
Filled the dark circles
Swirling thunder within my mind.
How dare you
How could you
Why did I
Who am I.
Sheer guilt
Of mistakes that had
Made me -
That I accounted for.
Guilt that I have now
Atoned for -
The way that karma finds you
When all else seemed warm.
