"Get over it."
"Move on!"
"Tagal na non"
"Iniiyakan mo pa din?"
"Madami naman dyan"
"Napaka tanga mo!"
These words won't heal me. These words won't even help to ease the pain I felt. Ni hindi nyan naalog yung "helmet" ko lol. First of all, I know na hindi niya ko deserve. That's a fact. Pero that doesn't mean I don't get to feel what I feel or felt. Hindi madali tbh. Ni hindi nyo alam yung full story. Maybe ako yung masama sa version ng iba but I'm not here to tell you these.
These past few years were not easy for me. I had my own battles to fight but I still tried so hard to help the people around me even though it's not my job. Some even stab me in the back but hey, you do you. It's hard to find people who would treat you the same kesyo kaharap ka o hindi.
Secondly, hindi lang sya ang problema ko. Hindi lang sya yung dinadala kong baggage. I've got a lot on mind right now. I've been weak physically, mentally, and emotionally. I tried facing my demons with alcohol and being workaholic just so that I could keep my mind off of things. But that's me.
Don't get me wrong. I love my job and workmates, which is quite new to me. It's what I've dreamt of since I started working during my college days. I love what I do plus my workmates genuinely care for each other and of course the restaurant we started altogether. I thought everything was going perfect. Until I realized that I've been abusing my mind and body. It's just that my mind's overloaded most of the time with work stuff and my personal problems. I don't even get enough sleep dahil sa byahe at madalas OT. Umabot pa sa point na umiiyak ako patago sa bus or UV dahil sa pagod at overthinking. When I have the chance to rest, I go out and drink the night out with my buddies. But these stuff won't give me the peace of mind I truly desire. These stuff gave me more problems.
I know, in my own phase and time, everything will be back on track. I've been facing problems bigger than this since I was 11. I am now fully aware of what I am and what I want to be. I won't let anything stop me from achieving my goals and the woman I can be. I am human, I am flawful, but I am the author of this goddamn story.















