#38w6d

Well, I’m still here. Still pregnant. Made it to the end of week 38, which is something I can’t say about my previous two pregnancies. The other boys were born at 38+3 and 38+4. Here I am at 38+6, just wondering where those contractions from last week went.

I’m surprised I’m having this hard a time dealing. I’m really not doing well with it.

I have my “39 week” OB appointment today and she did offer me that if I made it this far, she could do a membrane sweep for me. I had that done with pep. I’m leaning toward doing it just because my back pain has really ramped up in the past 24 hours and mentally I’m struggling with sitting around all day with zero plans and plenty of time to overthink.

Stilllllllll pregnant!  I’m glad I didn’t bet on when I expected to go into labor because I definitely would have lost money.  Apparently my family started a pool on when I’ll give birth and today is a popular day in that bet!  We’ll see!  I don’t feel any closer to giving birth than I did three weeks ago.  So curious when Aug will be joining us!  

Photo dump that I’ll detail below, not much else to report otherwise :)

Bump pic from the same day as I last posted.  It’s hard to get new bump pics when every time I’m in my room so is my mom and I don’t like taking these pics when other people are around. 

Erp fell asleep with her blanket over her head and stayed this way for a few hours.  Definitely had to zoom in to make sure she was still breathing. 

When we first moved here I took full advantage of the local Trader Joe’s and bought myself a gardenia plant that I promptly almost killed.  Amazingly, I was able to bring it back to life and yesterday experienced its first blossom!!  

Love this picture of my mom with my daughter :))) (please disregard the bow that I will never put on her again once my mom leaves and stops forcing them on her)

Saki in the wild tundra of blankets.

I wanted a new way to organize erp’s toys so I bought this shelf system and put it together when everyone in the house was sleeping.  I can be handy! 

Love when my mom takes erp out for a walk, but they’re always such short trips!  The first time they went out together they came back within 15 minutes... not enough time!  

For as grumpy as Saki is, he sure is tolerant as long as he can sit in my lap. Even if this means being a laptop stand or withstanding curious toddlers. 

Erp now knows how to crawl up onto and off of the couches.  This picture shows that she crawled up with her favorite blanket, one of her favorite books and some bubbles :) She’s ready!  

This post definitely is a good reminder to take more selfies so I have content to share other than my daughter and cat.  

Jack feels huge inside of me. I am huge. My belly aches constantly with the weight of my child and all that grew with him in there. I'm tired and restless, feeling depressed, anxious, and crabby. I'm ready to go into labor, like at least early labor. Something to get things moving. 🤷‍♀️

I have my 39 week visit tomorrow. After that our doctor will be gone for the rest of the week. I wanted to have baby boy this week. I'm not interested in going to the due date. He measures big, and he's moving around like a whole damn baby in there. He's a fully formed human babe and there's not much need for him to stay inside of me.